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yeah saterday was rad.
isabel and alan picked me up around 2 to go to the mall.
we had fun. alan sure did.
brendan called me later on that night during the car ride to my moms; we talked til about 10.
he was telling me about how he tried to break up this fight.
i almost cried. it was gross.
the dude got kicked in the face.
"his nose was like a faucet!",brendan said.
watched some of "drumline".
went to sleep early.
my brother called me this morning while i was sleeping so i got waken up by him.
hung around the house.
dad just now picked me up so im home now.
yeah i;m really stressed out at the moment.
theres so much bothering me right now.
like SOLs & just trying to pass.
and also how i am really mad at myself.
i am really not at the weight i want to be.
i mean i;m serious this time when i say im on a diet.
i was watching "True life" today on MTV.
and it was the "Im on a diet" one.
so i was like if they can do it i can too.
i want to loose like 30 pounds before summer is over.
or at least go down to a size 5 in jeans. right now im a 9.
yeah im obese. i told you.
i have no life at all.
i like hanging out with friends. its relaxing.
i want to hang out this comming weekend.
plus its a three day weekend since memorial day is monday.
i need to get a lot of sleep this week so im not like falling asleep during SOLs.
oh and im not going on a crash diet.
that shits wack cause if i dont eat and then try and exercise my butt off.
then start eating again the weights just going to come back.
im just not going to eat junk.
and i really need to join a gym.
ill probably hit up the gym this weekend with isabel.
that would be cool.
i want to start going to the gym like 4 times a week.
my motivation you ask..
Looking hot in my bikini.
that may never happen.
but its worth a shot.
im tired i think ill eat something then go to sleep at about 9 or 10.
P.S. im not mad at you. just hurt by what you had to say about me. it;s like you had a blow to the head and knocked all your senses out. why would you say something like that.I mean how was i selfish for wanting to hang out with you?and sorry if i made you mad by pissing you off that morning. i just didnt want you to miss out on anything & want you to pass. i dont think things could be the same between us with that being said. which sucks. but its also pretty gay to fight because you got a boyfriend. but it was kind of mess up how you gave up on your friends like that. <3kkaasseeyy