kaitlin needs sleep
Brace yourselves guys, I might actually be happy. I've been borrowing a lot of luck lately, and it might be paying off. Might.
I've been doing varying degrees of Childcare for a long time but never really thought about it as a career until recently. And I was intending to apply for a course next semester, when I randomly filled out an application for a Childcare traineeship a few suburbs over.
And now after my second interview I am doing a trial day on Tuesday. (which does not necessarily mean I have the job.)
But anyway, I'm excited. And nervous. It's a twelve month course. I do practical work at the daycare and then home and study. Which would be exhausting. And at the end of it I have a certificate III and money.
But twelve months is a long time for a seventeen year old.
Urgh. I really don't know. I'm talking myself out of it I think. I want to do it. And I could. I really just don't want to let anyone down. Most of all the kids I guess. I love being around kids. Mainly because I still am one.
Could I do it? Yeah, I think I could. I just don't know 100%
I went in again today, riding my bike. It's a 6.4km bike ride each way, and I have not ridden since I was about thirteen. My legs are freaking killing me. Buses are sporadic. Walking is an hour and a half each way and I don't have my license. I love riding. I just need to take a bike with a comfier seat.
I got there okay. I got lost a bit but I'm fine. I just need to get my license so that I'm not a slave to the elements.
I don't know. Is this making any sense? I think I can do this. I want to be able to do this.
But I'm exhausted just from riding there and back. What am I going to be like every day after working an eleven hour day?
I really don't want to let anyone down.
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