a sorta kinda revelation..if that 's the correct term
ok so yesterday i had an officer meeting at my house. we spoke of many thespian related things...and some other random stuff. afterwards it was movie time. we watched like 3 movies. yvan and skylar stayed the latest. they introduced me to Invader Zim. that cartoon is frickin' awesome! Gir is soooo cute! lol. skylar lent my the first 9 esps..i still have like 3 or 4 to go. it's cool.
vicki came over today. we talked about life and stuff like that. she made me realize how much i want to move out already. well not right now right now, but later later. when it's time to go to college. i don't wanna be stuck at my parents house for all my life. don't get me wrong, i love my parents and my home, but i need my independence. i want a place of my own. ok so maybe a dorm for the first few years of college, but eventually i'll get an apartment. i want my own kitchen, bathroom, my own living space..something that's mine alone. (well i might have a roomie, but same difference.) often, when i'm alone and doing a simple chore like washing the dishes, i find myself saying "when i get my place, i don't think i'll have as many dishes" or something to that effect. the point is, i'm almost ready to go on my own. sure it'll be scary as hell, but at least i'll be to prove to myself that i can do something big on my own. i know my parents will support me, they always have. but it's time to let go of their hands. i'm thinking of getting a job. to start saving up for what ever the hell i choose to do in the future. thing is, i donno if i'll have enough time. i'll definitely get one next summer. no excuses. i also i have to get my driver's permit and later my license.
::sigh:: growing up is hard. i still think last year was 6th grade. man, i miss those days. and man we've come so far...
i have to start growing up. cuz i won't realli last long out there the way i am right now. i have to start being more logical and actually pay attention to what's happening not only around me, but around the world. i have to be informed. i have to stop being so lazy. i have to do a lot of stuff. i won't change myself completely, just improve or enhance myself. whatever you wanna call it.
this school year, i'll try harder. don't know exactly what that means or what i'm trying harder at, but i gotta try.
vicki came over today. we talked about life and stuff like that. she made me realize how much i want to move out already. well not right now right now, but later later. when it's time to go to college. i don't wanna be stuck at my parents house for all my life. don't get me wrong, i love my parents and my home, but i need my independence. i want a place of my own. ok so maybe a dorm for the first few years of college, but eventually i'll get an apartment. i want my own kitchen, bathroom, my own living space..something that's mine alone. (well i might have a roomie, but same difference.) often, when i'm alone and doing a simple chore like washing the dishes, i find myself saying "when i get my place, i don't think i'll have as many dishes" or something to that effect. the point is, i'm almost ready to go on my own. sure it'll be scary as hell, but at least i'll be to prove to myself that i can do something big on my own. i know my parents will support me, they always have. but it's time to let go of their hands. i'm thinking of getting a job. to start saving up for what ever the hell i choose to do in the future. thing is, i donno if i'll have enough time. i'll definitely get one next summer. no excuses. i also i have to get my driver's permit and later my license.
::sigh:: growing up is hard. i still think last year was 6th grade. man, i miss those days. and man we've come so far...
i have to start growing up. cuz i won't realli last long out there the way i am right now. i have to start being more logical and actually pay attention to what's happening not only around me, but around the world. i have to be informed. i have to stop being so lazy. i have to do a lot of stuff. i won't change myself completely, just improve or enhance myself. whatever you wanna call it.
this school year, i'll try harder. don't know exactly what that means or what i'm trying harder at, but i gotta try.