Hmmmmm
Today is the day and I find myself getting more and more agitated about what mum has in store today and then thinking if I'm like this, what must be going through mum's mind?
I wish I could be with her today at the hospital but dad will be going with her and that's all they will allow - I checked. Her appointment is 11.30am, and while I know nothing will really happen today they still have to get 5 different needles in her (3 x Chemo drugs, 1 x antibiotics 1 x anti-sickness medication) and you should see the mess they made of her arm on Tuesday just to take some blood! Poor old girl :-(
I have no idea what the weekend will bring and I'm sorry cos I know I sound like a stuck record!!! But the thought of watching my mother go from being the most formidable, strong woman I know to a small, weak, ill bald old lady scares the shit out of me.
To be honest, I'm boring myself going on about it because this is happening to her and that's what is most important. How it effects everyone else is beside the point - she is the one who has to go through this. It's just that I am going to see her doing that and I need to whine somewhere, LOL! It's not like I don't have an amazing support system; I do. And I have the loveliest Fiance in the world who has been by my side the whole time so I am lucky really.
I just wish I could fast forward to when it's all done and she gets the all clear!!!
Well I am gonna stop blabbering on now! Happy Thursday flist, I hope you are all well and life is treating you good!
♥
I wish I could be with her today at the hospital but dad will be going with her and that's all they will allow - I checked. Her appointment is 11.30am, and while I know nothing will really happen today they still have to get 5 different needles in her (3 x Chemo drugs, 1 x antibiotics 1 x anti-sickness medication) and you should see the mess they made of her arm on Tuesday just to take some blood! Poor old girl :-(
I have no idea what the weekend will bring and I'm sorry cos I know I sound like a stuck record!!! But the thought of watching my mother go from being the most formidable, strong woman I know to a small, weak, ill bald old lady scares the shit out of me.
To be honest, I'm boring myself going on about it because this is happening to her and that's what is most important. How it effects everyone else is beside the point - she is the one who has to go through this. It's just that I am going to see her doing that and I need to whine somewhere, LOL! It's not like I don't have an amazing support system; I do. And I have the loveliest Fiance in the world who has been by my side the whole time so I am lucky really.
I just wish I could fast forward to when it's all done and she gets the all clear!!!
Well I am gonna stop blabbering on now! Happy Thursday flist, I hope you are all well and life is treating you good!
♥