*Just a scapegoat*
Never have I looked forward to leaving home & be my own person - not to be bossed around or sub-consciously be submissive to the whims of them - been so strong.
It’s got to the stage where noting how well/badly our relationship is going is normal - at the beginning of the summer it was all fine & I thought they’d finally come to realise and accept I was an adult…but then literally the other week, no idea what I say, but suddenly I’m the “stressy, stroppy child” that they labelled me when I was about 14!
Problem is that when they accuse me of being such, I answer back in an attempt to defend myself, which is further seen as being “stroppy”.
It’s like a fucking no-win situation.
Am I not allowed to defend myself when I am accused unfairly?
Am I not allowed my own life? And one that isn’t controlled by someone who thinks that just cos they gave birth to me means they can hold the reins on the way I am.
It seems that the whole time it’s always one rule for them, a different one for me.
What is further ironic is that after being accused of being short-tempered, I see his attitude & quick change of temper & I doubt I am the one needing to be reprimanded here.
Are they ashamed of their own behaviour & so blame me for every slightest petty thing so they start believing I’m the bad one?
With only 2 weeks until uni starts, why is this happening now?
Why can’t we finish the summer on a high, rather than passing the blame round?
They’re just pushing me further away than before, but somehow I’ve managed to put up with it all before…maybe because there was no other choice. Now the escape is in sight and maybe they’re scared because now they’ll have no one to blame but themselves.
It’s got to the stage where noting how well/badly our relationship is going is normal - at the beginning of the summer it was all fine & I thought they’d finally come to realise and accept I was an adult…but then literally the other week, no idea what I say, but suddenly I’m the “stressy, stroppy child” that they labelled me when I was about 14!
Problem is that when they accuse me of being such, I answer back in an attempt to defend myself, which is further seen as being “stroppy”.
It’s like a fucking no-win situation.
Am I not allowed to defend myself when I am accused unfairly?
Am I not allowed my own life? And one that isn’t controlled by someone who thinks that just cos they gave birth to me means they can hold the reins on the way I am.
It seems that the whole time it’s always one rule for them, a different one for me.
What is further ironic is that after being accused of being short-tempered, I see his attitude & quick change of temper & I doubt I am the one needing to be reprimanded here.
Are they ashamed of their own behaviour & so blame me for every slightest petty thing so they start believing I’m the bad one?
With only 2 weeks until uni starts, why is this happening now?
Why can’t we finish the summer on a high, rather than passing the blame round?
They’re just pushing me further away than before, but somehow I’ve managed to put up with it all before…maybe because there was no other choice. Now the escape is in sight and maybe they’re scared because now they’ll have no one to blame but themselves.