Oddness and the internet

Jan 25, 2007 07:54

I don't remember if I ever mentioned a random chat session that I had with a guy from Israel. He was a real piece of work, let me tell you. If I find the chat log, I will post it. Anyway, basically he would only talk to me if I had a web cam. If not, he wouldn't "waste his time" even though HE was the one who contacted *me*. So I had humored him and turned the cam on and watched as he raved about my beauty. (yeah... whatever) He claimed to have slaves who would do anything he wished and he went on and on about how rich he was and how he would send me gifts of cash and jewelery should I become one. He told me how his slaves would Carve my name (not my real name as far as anyone online is concerned) on their inner thighs and how the reason they did this was because he sent them gifts every few weeks and they found "they couldn't live without him" because the gifts were "addictive like crack". Yeah... like I said.. he was a real class-A act. Anyway, the entire time I talked to him, I had my cam on and minute by minute I started developing a really horrible migraine. Dizziness, seeing bright white light, intense pain... it was horrible. And since I knew people were watching me (when you turn a cam on, everyone watches out of curiosity even if you aren't doing anything but looking down) I turned my cam off. No warning, just turned it off. And my headache went away almost instantly. It was so weird. (The psycho-nut got *extremely* pissed and refused to ever talk to me again because I turned my cam off without "His Permission". heh.. what a loss. ~rolls eyes~) But like I said, my headache went away instantly and so did all the symptoms that came with it.

The reason I bring this up is because something vaguely similar has happened since I deleted my myspace and rid myself (at least partially if not mostly) of the drama that seemed to surround me. I feel like I have a bit of peace that I haven't felt in a long time. Since I started the whole 'myspace' thing actually... I'm starting to wonder if this negativity was cause by people who disliked me and would look at my image (because I had several pics of myself up there) with hatred. The IM guy I talked to was focusing on my image as well and looking back on it, it felt like he was trying to claw into my skull in a metaphysical sort of way. All of this leads me to question if it is actually possible that focused energy (both negative *and* positive) can be sent through the internet no matter what the distance is. Or perhaps its just because I'm really sensitive to these sort of things.


Ok.. so this is after the fact that he told me he wanted to SEE me when talking to me because he was afraid I was a 50 year old man. I had to re-download Yahoo because trillian wasn't compatable with his messenger service.

marcio_panizzi: ok
marcio_panizzi: glad you managd to download messenger again. hope to see and chat with you soon when both of us have time for each other
marcio_panizzi: bye an dtake care
lilwitchdollie: i'm on dial-up
marcio_panizzi: wow
marcio_panizzi: I bow with respect, admiration nad loyalty infront of your grace
marcio_panizzi: you look PERFECT
lilwitchdollie: ~blush~ thanks... heh.. not a 50 year old man
marcio_panizzi: true .I apologize, yet ialways ask for webcamas because many wants to show me becuase i PAY and SEND
marcio_panizzi: so i dnt waste too much time
lilwitchdollie: you dont have to pay me to talk to you
marcio_panizzi: you seem to have all iwant to keep you at all costs
marcio_panizzi: i will make any sacrifice to be able to win a tiny place in your hert so i can curl up aand stay
marcio_panizzi: jsut TEST my generousity and genuinity
marcio_panizzi: iam onthe other side of the world to you
marcio_panizzi: In Italy..and I can telephone to prove am nowhere near you
marcio_panizzi: jsut get involved in somethign diffferent
marcio_panizzi: and beenficial
marcio_panizzi: seperate boys from men
marcio_panizzi: seperate those who watch yu for free and jsut THANk you
marcio_panizzi: from those who are willing to SACRIFICE
lilwitchdollie: I.. have actually never done a cam show
lilwitchdollie: I've only modeled for pay sites
marcio_panizzi: i DONT want a cam show. I DONT want FAKE of anything. I usually send and spend on those who are NATURAL oncam, BRAVE, EXTREME, and allow me to view them as they go thru moods..when they chat with thier other friends..iam NOTa one to one cam person.I liek the crowd.
marcio_panizzi: I have 2 fetshes.. One BLOOD, 2 VOYEURING & SPENDING on
lilwitchdollie: blood.. really... hmmm
marcio_panizzi: i snd and spend on 12 peopelout of many i talk to
marcio_panizzi: i choose but i chance tsmt o time
marcio_panizzi: yes..
lilwitchdollie: nice blade
marcio_panizzi: i have 4-5 very devoted slaves onnet on cam who earnregularly fromme.
marcio_panizzi: When they are onlien i willshow you how they are OBEDIENT when blood is convcerned
marcio_panizzi: i will make one write your name on her inner thigh witha razor
marcio_panizzi: DOLLIE
marcio_panizzi: Iam a very rspectable, hard working sucessful Italian designer daytime. i earn a lot.and iam mostsy in my suits.. when iam at home iam withmy blades, and razors..
marcio_panizzi: i have few folowers and few slaves
marcio_panizzi: theyt earn regularly every 20*-25 days
marcio_panizzi: scars sleep under the expensive suits inthe morning at work
lilwitchdollie: so.. you are looking for subs?..... and you dont mind scars?
lilwitchdollie: I have plenty of those
marcio_panizzi: yes. iam NOT jsut one of those who watches, thanks nad says see you next time
marcio_panizzi: that swhy i get many cams to watch
marcio_panizzi: but
marcio_panizzi: i choose who to spend on and I do
marcio_panizzi: i can afford to keep for a long time..
lilwitchdollie: hmmm
marcio_panizzi: Italian shoes, jewelelry, expensive perfumes, lingerie, and soem money
marcio_panizzi: yes i liek scars, but liek isaid i have slaves iwant yo uto meet also..iwant one or two to write your name on ones inner thigh and one on chest on breast
marcio_panizzi: hot wax, razors, etc
lilwitchdollie: perhaps we will set aside a time then
lilwitchdollie: thats pretty
lilwitchdollie: and very well done
lilwitchdollie: i'm impressed
marcio_panizzi: do yo ulike it. I will definitely ORDER a slave to carve it on a body part on her you want
marcio_panizzi: iwant your initials inside it
marcio_panizzi: and mine
marcio_panizzi: ona slave
lilwitchdollie: it's beautiful.. but you dont have to do that
marcio_panizzi: they ge tpaid they are >ADDICTED. Iam very AADICTIVE
marcio_panizzi: every 20 days when they open a package send by DHL.
marcio_panizzi: they liek whats inside.. a new paif of Italian boots.. a sexy black ingerie
marcio_panizzi: or a 200dollars
marcio_panizzi: someare very addicted
marcio_panizzi: i liek to make peopel ADDICTED
marcio_panizzi: but only those i fel some STRONG VIBES
marcio_panizzi: liek you
marcio_panizzi: iwant to make yo uADDICTED
marcio_panizzi: iwant to make you an ADDICT
marcio_panizzi: ICAN AFFORD TO
lilwitchdollie: money is nice i guess......
marcio_panizzi: money ONCE is DIFFERENT, but its liek the best FLIGHT that ends quickly.. MONEY REGULARLY is a KICK of LIFETIME
lilwitchdollie: I'm a pretty simple girl
marcio_panizzi: i told you it turns me on a lot to see my SUB to watch many cams , watch sex, show sex, seduce..and use her POWERS.. I see and feel you are HOT and HORNY
marcio_panizzi: use your POWERS. seduce
marcio_panizzi: you will be my sub and you will try to ge tout but you will be ADDICTED to BOXES send
marcio_panizzi: iwant you an ADDICT
marcio_panizzi: iowant you to experience soemthig differnt
marcio_panizzi: out of allthose NORM
lilwitchdollie: well getting boxes would indeed be different.. but I dont need all that italian fancy stuff
marcio_panizzi: iwill give you what you need.. to be an OBEDIENT SUB
marcio_panizzi: at least you will try and SEE the difernce of 2 worls
marcio_panizzi: worlds
lilwitchdollie: can I think on it?
marcio_panizzi: THINK....
lilwitchdollie: are you angry?
marcio_panizzi: THINK but allow yourself to come to senses by SLAPPING your beutsfulface if you are too mcuh influenced by HUMAN WAY.. by COMMON MEN
marcio_panizzi: SLAP and coem to your senses..than come to me.. adn stayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
lilwitchdollie: ~smiles slightly~ the people I hang with are hardly common
marcio_panizzi: Than if they SATISFY your EARTHLY needs also than you dont NEED öe
marcio_panizzi: me
lilwitchdollie: hrm.... i told you.. i'm a simple girl.. but ok.. i'll do it... for a bit.. but not tonight
marcio_panizzi: its 7.30 am inthe morning here inItaly. becaus ei stayed all night last night sheddign blood , dominating subs, igot 2 hour sleep. Icalel dmy secretary and told he riam not feelign well i am stayignhome
lilwitchdollie: is that sufficiant?
marcio_panizzi: suficient or nto you decide. I gues one DOSE is enough to start with
marcio_panizzi: than we do mor eofteh till you are ADDICTED
lilwitchdollie: i must warn you.. i dont have a very addictive personality
marcio_panizzi: iwant to snd your first package on MOnday if I manage to OPEN your heart, mind, body and skin
marcio_panizzi: you are like a little wild horse. msot are aat the begining. But do you knwo thre are few who had nervous breakdown whni STOPPED sending them packages after 10-12 times
marcio_panizzi: and suddenly ALL stopepd
marcio_panizzi: soemhad nervous breakdown
marcio_panizzi: thats ADDICTION
lilwitchdollie: hrm..
marcio_panizzi: 200+200+200+200+200+200...........suddenly NOTHING
marcio_panizzi: THEY ARE BACK WITH THEIR COMMON ' TAHNKYOU MEN''S
marcio_panizzi: ALL EBCAUSE THEY HAVE BEEN DISOBEDIENT
marcio_panizzi: i LIKE IT WHEN YOU ARE GOING THRU MOODS, LIEK NOW
marcio_panizzi: WATCH,CHAT TO MEN/WOMAN LIEK NOW
lilwitchdollie: tonight is odd.. I am quite chatty... usually this is not the case
marcio_panizzi: I LIEK IT WHEN THE DARKNESS OF YOU ENGULFES ME LIKE A SWET PERFUME..
marcio_panizzi: I LIEKTHE CROWD.. LIEKA HELLDISCO PARTY
marcio_panizzi: SWAETY BODIES
marcio_panizzi: ORGIES.
marcio_panizzi: CHAOS
marcio_panizzi: SEX BLOOD
marcio_panizzi: AND ADDICTION
marcio_panizzi: MONEY IS NO PROBLEM
marcio_panizzi: DAYTIME HUMAN WAY OF LIVING AND WORKING EARNS A LOT
lilwitchdollie: so you keep saying
marcio_panizzi: WILL YOU ADD ME TO YOUR YAHOO IM LIST..IF YOU WANT TO STEP ON FIRE AND WALK TOWRDS ME..ADDME. ITS YOUR CHOICE,
lilwitchdollie: I did already....
marcio_panizzi: SO I HAVE PERMISION FROM MY SWEET BLACKBERRY/ RED WINE TASTING SUB .. TO ADD HER ALSO?
lilwitchdollie: if you wish
marcio_panizzi: I DOTN WISH..
marcio_panizzi: I DESIRE
lilwitchdollie: ok then.. do as you desire
Marcio Panizzi: IWILLASK FOR ANY ADRESS FROM YOU TO GIVE ME SO I CANSEND YOU YOUR ' BLACK PARCEL' WITHA SHINING HIGH QUALITY SILVER CROSS INSIDE..tHATS WHAT YOU EARNED SO FAR.. I WILL ADD 200 DOLLARS INSIDE ON MONDAY DEPENDING HOW DEVOTED YOU WILL EB BY MONDAY
Marcio Panizzi: IF YOU WISH ME TO TELEPHONE YOU FROM ITALY I WILL ...MY SUB.. SO YOU KNWO IAM ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD
Marcio Panizzi: IHAEV SERIOUS FETSIHES..AND YOUARE MY LATEST DESIRE
Marcio Panizzi: WALK IN OR WLK OUT
Marcio Panizzi: AT YOUR OWN RISK
Marcio Panizzi: FIRE OR FIRE
Marcio Panizzi: YOU CANT WIN..
Marcio Panizzi: YOU CAN ONLY BE A PART OF
Marcio Panizzi: IF YOU GO YOU WIL NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU TURNED DOWN..
lilwitchdollie: ok.. we will see
Marcio Panizzi: AND GO BACK TO SQUARE 1..COMMON THANK YOU MEN/WOMAN
Marcio Panizzi: OK ALLOW YOUR MIND FIGHT..AND DECIDE THE BEST FOR YOUR ' BLOOD'
Marcio Panizzi: IWAIT FOR THE WINNER
Marcio Panizzi: ANGEL OR DEVIL
lilwitchdollie: on moment hun
lilwitchdollie: one*
Marcio Panizzi: OK SUB
Marcio Panizzi: YOU ARE ALLOWED
Marcio Panizzi: ENJOY.IAM FEASTING MY EYES ON YOUR BEAUTY..IAM QUIET. QUIET..QUIETTT
Marcio Panizzi: GET WETTTTTTTT
lilwitchdollie: back
lilwitchdollie: sorry
lilwitchdollie: had to help a friend with some html
Marcio Panizzi: I HEAR THE SCREAM INSIDE YOU..I HEAR THE SCREAMS OF YOUR WOUNDS..
Marcio Panizzi: I WILL HOLD YOUR HAND AND SHOW YOU SOME OF MY EXTREME SUBS AS THEY SHIT AND EAT SHIT ON CAM..AS THEY PEE ADN DRINK PEE AS THEY BLEED AND FUCK WITHA BLOODY VIBRATOR
Marcio Panizzi: IWANT YOUR NAME CARVED ON EVERY SLAVE I HAVE
lilwitchdollie: i.... dont know about the scat thing...
Marcio Panizzi: IWILLSHOW YOU.. SCAT.. LONG SHITS RUBBED ON BREASTS. PIECES CHEWED..BROWN TOUNGES
Marcio Panizzi: VERY ANIMAL LIKE
lilwitchdollie: nooooooooooo
lilwitchdollie: not my thing
Marcio Panizzi: YOU WILL OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE AS MY SLAVES SHOW ONLY FOR YOU
Marcio Panizzi: WHEN I ORDER
Marcio Panizzi: MY ADICTS
Marcio Panizzi: IWANT YOUR BLACK EYES OPEN
Marcio Panizzi: THEY WILL CHEW AND EAT FOR YOU
Marcio Panizzi: IWILL GET YOUR NAME WRITTEN ON THEIR CHESTS WITHA RED LIPSTIC AS THEY EAT SHIT
Marcio Panizzi: UNLESS... YOU ENJOY HUMAN WAY
Marcio Panizzi: CHAT,CAM
Marcio Panizzi: YOUR CAM STOPPED
lilwitchdollie: I know.. I gave you much more then 2 minutes
Marcio Panizzi: YOU HIDING
lilwitchdollie: no.. I have a headache
Marcio Panizzi: OK
Marcio Panizzi: OK..
Marcio Panizzi: DELETE ME..YOU BEING DISOBEDIENT. I DONT LIEK SUBS GOING WITHOUT ASKING PERMISION TO LEAVE
Marcio Panizzi: YOU ARE NOT IN MY LSIT ANYMORE
Marcio Panizzi: GO BACK TO HUMANS
lilwitchdollie: ~just shrugs~
lilwitchdollie: I will and I will eat them
Marcio Panizzi: DELETED.. DONE. AND BYE

witchy stuff, im

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