The Year in Review...

[witchdollie]

Copy and paste the first paragraph of the first post of every month of 2010, as well as the mood and music...

January 20th, 2010
I have been waaay too silent on LJ, so whoohoo a post from me. Now you call all know what excitement you have been missing out on.

• Mood:
  contemplative
• Music:You're Gonna Go Far Kid ~ Godsmack

 February 5th, 2010
A person from my past found my facebook the other day and added me. I had broken off all connection with this person for various reasons. One of them being that I had fallen for them very hard, they hurt me beyond repair, and then things were never the same between us again. We both went our separate ways. He mentioned that he doesn't understand why I 'vanished'. (aka kicked him from my LJ f-list, gave up on any messenging programs and such.) I can tell that somehow he wants to once again have the same hold on me as he used to in the past. Or maybe that's just what I am afraid of. Afraid that if I let him into my life, he will see fit to say whatever he pleases.'

• Mood:
  mellow
• Music:Greed ~ Godsmack

 March 3rd, 2010
I need love.

• Mood:
  melancholy

April 16th, 2010
Yep. Still Alive. (insert Portal song here)

• Mood:
  calm

May 27th, 2010
Doesnt Really Matter...

• Mood:
  blah

----Nothing for June----

July 1st, 2010

I havent written in a while. Like an honest-to-goodness post that actually shows one of two things.

1.) I have depth
or
2.) I'm crazy.
Or perhaps there is a 3rd option where I am "Deeply Crazy".

• Mood:
  hopeful
• Music:Yoko Kano - Call Me, Call Me

August 1st, 2010

Twitter is pissing me off. >.>

• Mood:
  mellow

September 1st, 2010
Last night I gave into the urge to change my journal. I had the graphics done and uploaded. I had the style picked out. I even made tiny little icons to replace the user and community defaults.

• Mood:
  blah

October 5th, 2010
It figures. Once I finally get used to my 'life on the road' and start sleeping well, I head home and start dreaming again.

• Mood:
  anxious

November 2nd, 2010
No work last evening so went to see Red with boss-man. I was amused. Lots of humor, things blowing up, people getting shot... it was great. In my next life I want to work for the CIA.

• Mood:
  complacent

December 1st, 2010
How could I have been so stupid?

These things never last. This was NOT what I wanted. Well, ok.. maybe it was.. But I didn't want it like this! I wanted to be able to be with him. To share this news and have him overjoyed that he finally had a child of his own. Instead, here I am.. pregnant, and afraid to even let him know because I don't want to complicate things for him (again).