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What a wonderful night....
I feel different now. But a good different. I love Oz so much... I just can't believe what happened....
I was really worried that Oz was going to hate me. And that feeling was an unpleasant one because of how much I love him. When I came to his room my heart was pounding. He said he forgave me and told me to stop worrying. And then let's just say that he gave me a pretty good reason not to worry... I gave him the one gift I now can never give anyone else. I gave him my heart, body, and soul for the first time.
I can't decribe how it felt, just lying there in his arms. I laid my head against his chest and listened to his heart beat. It's the most wonderful feeling in the world to just know that this moment is real. I just breathed him in. There is no place I would rather be.
Of course, being the Willowy way that I am, I think I messed up the mood because there was silence and I tried to fill the gaps by talking about all this random stuff. It made him smile, though.. which is always good.
Now I really have to focus on this Master thing... I know he is going to rise soon. I wish I knew how to stop it.
I feel different now. But a good different. I love Oz so much... I just can't believe what happened....
I was really worried that Oz was going to hate me. And that feeling was an unpleasant one because of how much I love him. When I came to his room my heart was pounding. He said he forgave me and told me to stop worrying. And then let's just say that he gave me a pretty good reason not to worry... I gave him the one gift I now can never give anyone else. I gave him my heart, body, and soul for the first time.
I can't decribe how it felt, just lying there in his arms. I laid my head against his chest and listened to his heart beat. It's the most wonderful feeling in the world to just know that this moment is real. I just breathed him in. There is no place I would rather be.
Of course, being the Willowy way that I am, I think I messed up the mood because there was silence and I tried to fill the gaps by talking about all this random stuff. It made him smile, though.. which is always good.
Now I really have to focus on this Master thing... I know he is going to rise soon. I wish I knew how to stop it.