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I talked to Xander on the phone last night. He told me that he really thinks I should talk to Oz. I guess he's probably right... I just hope I dont flip out on him again. I'm sure he has a good reason for everything. At least I hope he does. I mean I do still love him, but I think our relationship is scarred for a while, possibly even forever.
On the other hand, I feel so lost without him. My heart is having trouble beating and sometimes I can't even breathe. I guess if I need him so much, I should probably at least give him the chance to at least talk. If Xander can read his mind, and he still thinks I should give Oz another shot, then I guess its worth it.
I'm so scared, though. Xander told me that Oz asked Buffy to kill him. I never wanted it to come to that. I'm suffering too, but it never came to the point where I wanted to die. Oz is living in complete suffering... I guess he really is sorry about what he's done. There's the whole saying, "Once a cheater, always a cheater." I don't know how much I really believe of that, but I should keep that in mind, right?
I got Xander's opinion on everything. I think I really need to talk to Buffy before I make any decisions. I need the girl's perspective. ::sigh:: I need to catch up with her too. I've been so couped up in my own little world that I had no idea that Dawn and Xander were dating. Everytime I've talked to Buffy recently, I've just cried to her. I really don't have any idea what's happening in everyone else's life. I should probably call Buffy and maybe go to the bronze with her and talk or something.
On the other hand, I feel so lost without him. My heart is having trouble beating and sometimes I can't even breathe. I guess if I need him so much, I should probably at least give him the chance to at least talk. If Xander can read his mind, and he still thinks I should give Oz another shot, then I guess its worth it.
I'm so scared, though. Xander told me that Oz asked Buffy to kill him. I never wanted it to come to that. I'm suffering too, but it never came to the point where I wanted to die. Oz is living in complete suffering... I guess he really is sorry about what he's done. There's the whole saying, "Once a cheater, always a cheater." I don't know how much I really believe of that, but I should keep that in mind, right?
I got Xander's opinion on everything. I think I really need to talk to Buffy before I make any decisions. I need the girl's perspective. ::sigh:: I need to catch up with her too. I've been so couped up in my own little world that I had no idea that Dawn and Xander were dating. Everytime I've talked to Buffy recently, I've just cried to her. I really don't have any idea what's happening in everyone else's life. I should probably call Buffy and maybe go to the bronze with her and talk or something.