Bummed out
Forgot my spoon so I can't eat my yogart at lunch...
I had a really great weekend with the girls and guys in Red. Got so drunk that I actually spewed. Not done that in a very long time...paid for it in a major way on Sunday tho. I was in a world of death and spent quite a long time curled up in the bottom of my shower trying to get to sleep. Horrible horrible day.
The main reason I'm making this entry is because I feel I've had a great injustice done against me. I can't remember how much I've moaned about this already or whatever but I'm back in my dads work. It took me more or less a day to realise why I left in the first place. I hate it here. It's your typical fucking boring office cliche that you see on TV except 10 times worse because it's real. And I just think, I don't deserve this as it really does feel like a punishment. You don't have a job, you moan about not having one. You get a job, you moan about how shite it is. And I assure you folks If I have to work in here much longer I'm going to slit my throat.
So anyway. The job hunt for my dream chemistry job has been on going and unfruitful. One interview that I had been chasing for ages was from a place called Exova in Edinburgh. Went to the interview and had a great rapport with the interviewer, Lee, got taken a wee tour of the company and overall the interview went really well. I was told I would know whether I had the job in a week. More than a week goes by. So I give them a wee call and I'm told Lee is having an audit right now and he'll call me back when he can. So I wait. And wait. Until another week goes by and then I think fuck it I'll phone again. This time I'm told Lee is sick and he's been off. That's why he hasn't rung me back! Smiles. So I wait again until he is back in for a call about the job. Another week goes by. So I decided to phone them AGAIN. And by this point I had pretty much given up. I thought ok Ruth they obviously don't want you or they would have called you by now, but you may aswell phone one last time anyway and if they fobb you off again thats the end.
So I called them. And FINALLY I get to talk to Lee.
He apologizes for not getting in contact sooner and explains that the company has been very busy. He said they had already hired 5 people and there was a 6th position that looked like it was mine. His exact words were I believe "It's basically a yes but I just need to confirm it with my supervisor and we'll let you know on Monday"
I was ecstatic! But I decided not to tell anyone because obviously it wasn't offical yet (Which is why I never said anything to you on Saturday night girls, sorry for lying) But I started thinking about it all in my head. My new job, new prospects, new flat, getting out of my dads work and being free! :) I tried not to get my hopes up just incase but sometimes you just can't help it.
So the weekend passes and I'm pretty darn happy. Until Monday. I waited all day for that phone call keeping my fingers crossed that nothing would go wrong. Then I got an EMAIL:
"Dear Ruth
RE: ANALYTICAL CHEMIST
Thank you for attending the interview for the above named position.
We regret to inform you that on this occasion we will not be proceeding further with your application.
May I take this opportunity to thank you for showing an interest in our Company and we wish you well in your search for employment.
Yours Sincerely
Bozena Kowtun
Resourcing Coordinator"
I.was.crushed. Seriously what right do they have to do that to a person. Tell me the jobs as good as mine and then snatch it away from me without EVEN A FUCKING PHONECALL. The email was so generic it was sickening. Honestly I wanted to work there so badly it looked amazing and everyone seemed to lovely. I had chased after it for so long that I had resided myself to not getting it; only for them to give me false hope. Then they never even had the balls to call up and tell me so. I don't know whether they decided to only hire 5 people. Or whether they just gave it to someone else. Knowing I'm not even in the top six when I done so well in the interview is just rubbing extra salt in the wounds. After this I was really really upset. And I was still in my dads work so I couldn't even cry it out properly. People say you always have to look up but they don't know how bad it feels to be constantly rejected. I have two interviews coming up and I'm just so tired with being told in a generic fashion that I'm not good enough. I don't know how much more rejection I can take.
I had a really great weekend with the girls and guys in Red. Got so drunk that I actually spewed. Not done that in a very long time...paid for it in a major way on Sunday tho. I was in a world of death and spent quite a long time curled up in the bottom of my shower trying to get to sleep. Horrible horrible day.
The main reason I'm making this entry is because I feel I've had a great injustice done against me. I can't remember how much I've moaned about this already or whatever but I'm back in my dads work. It took me more or less a day to realise why I left in the first place. I hate it here. It's your typical fucking boring office cliche that you see on TV except 10 times worse because it's real. And I just think, I don't deserve this as it really does feel like a punishment. You don't have a job, you moan about not having one. You get a job, you moan about how shite it is. And I assure you folks If I have to work in here much longer I'm going to slit my throat.
So anyway. The job hunt for my dream chemistry job has been on going and unfruitful. One interview that I had been chasing for ages was from a place called Exova in Edinburgh. Went to the interview and had a great rapport with the interviewer, Lee, got taken a wee tour of the company and overall the interview went really well. I was told I would know whether I had the job in a week. More than a week goes by. So I give them a wee call and I'm told Lee is having an audit right now and he'll call me back when he can. So I wait. And wait. Until another week goes by and then I think fuck it I'll phone again. This time I'm told Lee is sick and he's been off. That's why he hasn't rung me back! Smiles. So I wait again until he is back in for a call about the job. Another week goes by. So I decided to phone them AGAIN. And by this point I had pretty much given up. I thought ok Ruth they obviously don't want you or they would have called you by now, but you may aswell phone one last time anyway and if they fobb you off again thats the end.
So I called them. And FINALLY I get to talk to Lee.
He apologizes for not getting in contact sooner and explains that the company has been very busy. He said they had already hired 5 people and there was a 6th position that looked like it was mine. His exact words were I believe "It's basically a yes but I just need to confirm it with my supervisor and we'll let you know on Monday"
I was ecstatic! But I decided not to tell anyone because obviously it wasn't offical yet (Which is why I never said anything to you on Saturday night girls, sorry for lying) But I started thinking about it all in my head. My new job, new prospects, new flat, getting out of my dads work and being free! :) I tried not to get my hopes up just incase but sometimes you just can't help it.
So the weekend passes and I'm pretty darn happy. Until Monday. I waited all day for that phone call keeping my fingers crossed that nothing would go wrong. Then I got an EMAIL:
"Dear Ruth
RE: ANALYTICAL CHEMIST
Thank you for attending the interview for the above named position.
We regret to inform you that on this occasion we will not be proceeding further with your application.
May I take this opportunity to thank you for showing an interest in our Company and we wish you well in your search for employment.
Yours Sincerely
Bozena Kowtun
Resourcing Coordinator"
I.was.crushed. Seriously what right do they have to do that to a person. Tell me the jobs as good as mine and then snatch it away from me without EVEN A FUCKING PHONECALL. The email was so generic it was sickening. Honestly I wanted to work there so badly it looked amazing and everyone seemed to lovely. I had chased after it for so long that I had resided myself to not getting it; only for them to give me false hope. Then they never even had the balls to call up and tell me so. I don't know whether they decided to only hire 5 people. Or whether they just gave it to someone else. Knowing I'm not even in the top six when I done so well in the interview is just rubbing extra salt in the wounds. After this I was really really upset. And I was still in my dads work so I couldn't even cry it out properly. People say you always have to look up but they don't know how bad it feels to be constantly rejected. I have two interviews coming up and I'm just so tired with being told in a generic fashion that I'm not good enough. I don't know how much more rejection I can take.