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the way i figure, i'll offer my services as a friend. if you accept, beautiful.
if not, there really isn't much i can do with that.
i can finally come to terms with the fact that the world, indeed, does not revolve around me. i'm okay with that, i think. i'm going to have to be.
something at work is very unsettling. today, i just felt as though everyone was annoyed with me. but then, i was in an odd state of mind today.
it was an i'm-invincible day. i hate those days. i end up pissing someone off, or someones off. seems to be happening more often than not. i left with this overwhelming sense of dread/worry/anxiety. like i'm going to be fired. i need to change my attitude. i keep saying i'm going to, but finding myself in the same rut i've been experiencing for the past couple of weeks.
i need a fucking vacation. over a year with this place, and the closest thing to a vacation was coming home for bubbe's funeral last year. i spent that whole week an unemotional zombie. i tried enjoying myself, but found the only thing i wanted to do was cry. the one thing i hadn't the capacity to do at that point in time.
speaking of which, thank you robin for carting me around for a little bit that week. i'm really grateful for that. *hugs* in fact, thank you everyone i'd seen that week who spent time with me.
once again, this has turned into an "i'm sorry i took advantage of your friendships" episode.
"who are you?"
"i'm david hasselhoff."
-sbsp the movie.
fearmeknowme (12:33:33 AM): \(^.^)/
radioactive490 (12:33:43 AM): hahaha
radioactive490 (12:34:11 AM): \m/
radioactive490 (12:34:39 AM): its hardcore
fearmeknowme (12:34:50 AM): oh so hardcore.
radioactive490 (12:35:01 AM): rahh!!
if not, there really isn't much i can do with that.
i can finally come to terms with the fact that the world, indeed, does not revolve around me. i'm okay with that, i think. i'm going to have to be.
something at work is very unsettling. today, i just felt as though everyone was annoyed with me. but then, i was in an odd state of mind today.
it was an i'm-invincible day. i hate those days. i end up pissing someone off, or someones off. seems to be happening more often than not. i left with this overwhelming sense of dread/worry/anxiety. like i'm going to be fired. i need to change my attitude. i keep saying i'm going to, but finding myself in the same rut i've been experiencing for the past couple of weeks.
i need a fucking vacation. over a year with this place, and the closest thing to a vacation was coming home for bubbe's funeral last year. i spent that whole week an unemotional zombie. i tried enjoying myself, but found the only thing i wanted to do was cry. the one thing i hadn't the capacity to do at that point in time.
speaking of which, thank you robin for carting me around for a little bit that week. i'm really grateful for that. *hugs* in fact, thank you everyone i'd seen that week who spent time with me.
once again, this has turned into an "i'm sorry i took advantage of your friendships" episode.
"who are you?"
"i'm david hasselhoff."
-sbsp the movie.
fearmeknowme (12:33:33 AM): \(^.^)/
radioactive490 (12:33:43 AM): hahaha
radioactive490 (12:34:11 AM): \m/
radioactive490 (12:34:39 AM): its hardcore
fearmeknowme (12:34:50 AM): oh so hardcore.
radioactive490 (12:35:01 AM): rahh!!