Knowing me....knowing you
I've decided to stop closing myself off. Work on journaling here openly about whatever comes to mind. So, with that, here I am, propped up with pillows in my nightshirt, computer on my knees, a hard cider on the nightstand and listening to Amanda Palmer sing this...
I ran with a little obsession of her a while ago after stumbling upon this...
...and discovered I had a deep admiration for her art....it touched all that I am not I suppose.
But when I think about it, I edit in this comment to say it touches me...truthfully it resonates deeply with me.
So, Nao is hanging with friends for a supervised overnighter. Gma Lu went home today and will likely be back this weekend. Sarah is asleep. J and I in our own interests while M played a video game.
New Years Eve has been probably my most disappointing of all holidays. Almost always. I wonder if others feel as I do. Like everyone else is having the most amazing time...while I sit home watching the ball drop on tv. Yeah.
..............
Yesterday Nao and I were sitting at the table and she was drawing a Zelda figure. She's quite talented and love to see her do art. I picked up a pencil and started to sketch her. She wasn't critical.....Mary came up and bashed it immediately, but Nao was quiet. Then when Mar left and it was just us again she said 'You know mom, you can draw...it just takes practice. That's how I got good.'
So, I continued to sketch her and there was some resemblance to who I was looking at. When Mar then sat down to color in a Hello Kitty coloring book of Sarah's I started to sketch her too. It wasn't like you'd know 'Oh yeah...that's her!' But it wasn't a horrible rendering. I need to be a bit more committed to the pencil on the paper as they were pretty lighthanded.
It felt good.
............
And so just writing that makes my mood lift quite a bit. Tomorrow is the beginning of a new year.
I hope I make the best of it.
Click to viewI ran with a little obsession of her a while ago after stumbling upon this...
...and discovered I had a deep admiration for her art....it touched all that I am not I suppose.
But when I think about it, I edit in this comment to say it touches me...truthfully it resonates deeply with me.
So, Nao is hanging with friends for a supervised overnighter. Gma Lu went home today and will likely be back this weekend. Sarah is asleep. J and I in our own interests while M played a video game.
New Years Eve has been probably my most disappointing of all holidays. Almost always. I wonder if others feel as I do. Like everyone else is having the most amazing time...while I sit home watching the ball drop on tv. Yeah.
..............
Yesterday Nao and I were sitting at the table and she was drawing a Zelda figure. She's quite talented and love to see her do art. I picked up a pencil and started to sketch her. She wasn't critical.....Mary came up and bashed it immediately, but Nao was quiet. Then when Mar left and it was just us again she said 'You know mom, you can draw...it just takes practice. That's how I got good.'
So, I continued to sketch her and there was some resemblance to who I was looking at. When Mar then sat down to color in a Hello Kitty coloring book of Sarah's I started to sketch her too. It wasn't like you'd know 'Oh yeah...that's her!' But it wasn't a horrible rendering. I need to be a bit more committed to the pencil on the paper as they were pretty lighthanded.
It felt good.
............
And so just writing that makes my mood lift quite a bit. Tomorrow is the beginning of a new year.
I hope I make the best of it.