pep talk and cry for help
wow....so basically I feel like I got hit by a bus. Lets recap: Moved in with adam, loved adam, was planning to come back and live and be happy with adam for many if not all years to come.
Went to Africa, friend died, had physical collapse due to virus, couldn't walk for several weeks, couldn't finish the tour, adam left me for someone else and completely abandoned me, another friend died, came back to states, moved out and into parents office, all my fish died.....
so basically I feel like I got hit by a bus. And the funny thing is that no one really expects it, and so every day you wake up and think, "holy shit, did I seriously, actually, get hit by a bus?!" and the answer is "yes, yes you did."
I guess that wasn't really a pep talk, but I think its a good thing that I'm beginning to realize how humorous and absurd my situation is. Which I guess is important.
If anyone, anyone, would like to give me a pep talk, I would love one, big or small, cause I'm seriously having a hard time dealing with my life.