i can't live//i can't breathe//unless you do this with me
so i think i may end up spending my birthday with the tremendous feeling of being depressed. i miss AJ..more than i really show. i mean i'm really trying to have fun and get used to being single again..but its so hard..especially when i still feel like i have a boyfriend. last night he and i had a long talk (when i say talk..i mean i talked he listened) about how much i miss him and still need him..i cried through the whole thing. what sucks is that i know he misses me too but feels like its better this way.
i have so many things i see/do daily that remind me of him. when i go on break at work i'm at a loss for what to do because i used to call him during that time.
i just miss him so much..theres so much about him i miss..so much that just make up missing him as a whole..
i'm sorry, i've been pretending to be happy..because i'm definitely not..i cried for like a week after he broke up with me and then i couldn't cry anymore..but the last couple of days all i've wanted to do is cry..and i have. i'm crying right now..i can't help it. i shouldn't be left to my own devices..because then i think..about everything about him. which makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry myself into oblivion or sleep..whichever comes first. its not just at home i cry either..i started crying in traffic the other day because i heard a song and it made me think about him.
thats it..for now...until i want to curl up in a ball again.
i have so many things i see/do daily that remind me of him. when i go on break at work i'm at a loss for what to do because i used to call him during that time.
i just miss him so much..theres so much about him i miss..so much that just make up missing him as a whole..
i'm sorry, i've been pretending to be happy..because i'm definitely not..i cried for like a week after he broke up with me and then i couldn't cry anymore..but the last couple of days all i've wanted to do is cry..and i have. i'm crying right now..i can't help it. i shouldn't be left to my own devices..because then i think..about everything about him. which makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry myself into oblivion or sleep..whichever comes first. its not just at home i cry either..i started crying in traffic the other day because i heard a song and it made me think about him.
thats it..for now...until i want to curl up in a ball again.