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ugh, all i can say is that my life is so hectic. i just seriously jsut can't wait till the end of the day, when i can go sit in my room and shut the door &seclude my self from life. it seems so much easier that way, everything has been so confusing this past month, well just about every day. i'm not sure where i'm going with this whole "get good grades" "always have a smile on your face"
WELL YOU KNOW WHAT I DON'T WANT TO SMILE ANYMORE. NOTHING SEEMS TO MAKE ME HAPPY, WHEN I COME TO SCHOOL IT'S LIKE A HELL THAT I CAN'T LEAVE, & I JUST WANT TO MAKE IT STOP!
i have some of the most loving friends &i feel like i don't even know them anymore. it sucks, i want things to go back to the way they used to be. 9th grade was so amazing i had sooo many great times with chantel, angelica, nicole, rhonda, ashley & ditching community service, & hanging out with garrett, gavin, &logan with angelica in geometry. &sooo much more lol. and now we barely even talk, i just wonder if like this is just the ways things are going to be? it's scary. &i want all of us to be friends again. maybe i just miss being young &relentless with life, &now i'm just realizing that everything isn't going to be hunky dory in the end.. but GOD, if i could do it all over again, i would take out all the arguments, &fights, &drama, &make sure that it was the best times of our lives.
WELL YOU KNOW WHAT I DON'T WANT TO SMILE ANYMORE. NOTHING SEEMS TO MAKE ME HAPPY, WHEN I COME TO SCHOOL IT'S LIKE A HELL THAT I CAN'T LEAVE, & I JUST WANT TO MAKE IT STOP!
i have some of the most loving friends &i feel like i don't even know them anymore. it sucks, i want things to go back to the way they used to be. 9th grade was so amazing i had sooo many great times with chantel, angelica, nicole, rhonda, ashley & ditching community service, & hanging out with garrett, gavin, &logan with angelica in geometry. &sooo much more lol. and now we barely even talk, i just wonder if like this is just the ways things are going to be? it's scary. &i want all of us to be friends again. maybe i just miss being young &relentless with life, &now i'm just realizing that everything isn't going to be hunky dory in the end.. but GOD, if i could do it all over again, i would take out all the arguments, &fights, &drama, &make sure that it was the best times of our lives.