tonight i'm gonna give you all my love...in the backseat...bubble pop electic
afternoon. today is my oldest and wisest sister, Tina's birthday. the last time i got to spend it with her was three years ago at the beach when they came and rented that beach house. that feels like ages ago. that's also the last tina'brenda party we will ever have. yes there can be more parties with the same people'n'what-not but it will never be the same. *sigh*
right so really i could be DONE having dreams about babies/pregnancy. i've had like three in the past week!! knock it off already subconcious!! i know i want a baby...but not right now! and there are so many people around me that are pregnant or have small children that it makes it that much worse. last night i was pregant and going to have the baby...the last one i had i had the baby and was breast-feeding it...and the time before that i was preganant and could feel it moving around in my stomach. *hangs head* it's trippin me out!!
i always sabatoge myself.
i'm never going to see my boyfriend anymore. since he got a DUI he can't drive for the next year and has to ride his bike back and forth from work. wouldn't be too bad if he lived closer to his job...but it's like a 30min DRIVE from where he lives if that gives you any inclination as to how long it takes to BIKE there. :o\ so during the week i don't see him at all...and the weekends are going to be blown away too as he has to start his comunity service here real soon. *pouts* at least he has his phone so i can still talk to him. ubber depressing though.....
right so really i could be DONE having dreams about babies/pregnancy. i've had like three in the past week!! knock it off already subconcious!! i know i want a baby...but not right now! and there are so many people around me that are pregnant or have small children that it makes it that much worse. last night i was pregant and going to have the baby...the last one i had i had the baby and was breast-feeding it...and the time before that i was preganant and could feel it moving around in my stomach. *hangs head* it's trippin me out!!
i always sabatoge myself.
i'm never going to see my boyfriend anymore. since he got a DUI he can't drive for the next year and has to ride his bike back and forth from work. wouldn't be too bad if he lived closer to his job...but it's like a 30min DRIVE from where he lives if that gives you any inclination as to how long it takes to BIKE there. :o\ so during the week i don't see him at all...and the weekends are going to be blown away too as he has to start his comunity service here real soon. *pouts* at least he has his phone so i can still talk to him. ubber depressing though.....