you wanna part of me...well i'm not selling cheap
morning folks.
i kept looking at my clock last night wondering if i set it for today. because i was supposed to work today at ten. but i was just like...i don't have to do that because i don't work there anymore. it was strange.
i've never just up and quit a job before. so this is weird to me. i'm glad i did it though. i need some time to leave the bandages off and help the wound heal. because at work i had to wrap myself up so tight so it wouldn't seep through. and even then there was seeping. but i want to be better..and the only way i can that is by working through it..crying when i need to cry...screaming when i need to scream.
today we are going to demolish my bed. *jumps for joy* i've been dying to just lash out at something the last week or so. i'm so infuriated with the world..with god..with my dad. and since i'm getting a new bigger bed on wednesday, ray's gonna take the frame to this one away today..and i asked if i could beat the shit outa it...and rhonda had no problem with that. :o) so i'll be able to take out some aggression today which will be nice.
i got to visit john yesterday! for like three hours i hung out with him. it was weird though because he was driving me around in his car. it just didn't seem natural having him in the drivers seat. but since he drove from cali all the way up here by himself...i figured he was an okay driver. *shakes head* he's gonna break his car i'm tellin ya!
we went over and saw eric and then danielle called and had to come over too. and they all had cars! it was weird!! it was cool seeing eric though. he's still the same old eric. and john's still the same old john. though he has gained a little weight. it doesn't look like he's gained as much as he says he has...but he's still john..and i still love him. he cracks me up.
so today i plan on doing nothing but letting my brain heal. i'm giving myself some air.
i kept looking at my clock last night wondering if i set it for today. because i was supposed to work today at ten. but i was just like...i don't have to do that because i don't work there anymore. it was strange.
i've never just up and quit a job before. so this is weird to me. i'm glad i did it though. i need some time to leave the bandages off and help the wound heal. because at work i had to wrap myself up so tight so it wouldn't seep through. and even then there was seeping. but i want to be better..and the only way i can that is by working through it..crying when i need to cry...screaming when i need to scream.
today we are going to demolish my bed. *jumps for joy* i've been dying to just lash out at something the last week or so. i'm so infuriated with the world..with god..with my dad. and since i'm getting a new bigger bed on wednesday, ray's gonna take the frame to this one away today..and i asked if i could beat the shit outa it...and rhonda had no problem with that. :o) so i'll be able to take out some aggression today which will be nice.
i got to visit john yesterday! for like three hours i hung out with him. it was weird though because he was driving me around in his car. it just didn't seem natural having him in the drivers seat. but since he drove from cali all the way up here by himself...i figured he was an okay driver. *shakes head* he's gonna break his car i'm tellin ya!
we went over and saw eric and then danielle called and had to come over too. and they all had cars! it was weird!! it was cool seeing eric though. he's still the same old eric. and john's still the same old john. though he has gained a little weight. it doesn't look like he's gained as much as he says he has...but he's still john..and i still love him. he cracks me up.
so today i plan on doing nothing but letting my brain heal. i'm giving myself some air.