i'm yours
I don't like that I never ever ever use this. So much has changed since I last wrote, and I really am just too lazy to update. I don't know. But this is still here.
But I just kinda want to rant? Even though no one reads this...I don't really care.
I always feel so unproductive (is that the word?) lately. I always feel like whenever I have any free time, there's something wrong. But I LOVE free time. And I can't enjoy it during the week anymore because I feel like there is always something for school that I could or should be doing, or that I should be going out and applying for jobs which I need to do more but I can't drive quite yet. And my grades aren't nearly as good as they were last year, and I'm not terribly unhappy with them (Except Chemistry) but I just feel like they are slipping. Even though they're not awful. And it's so odd that now is when I keep getting these random things in the mail that look like they are so incredibly wonderful and elite, when if they really were they would never be sending me things now, now that my grades are not nearly as good as they could be. These so-called societies of honors students across America who claim they want me because of my outstanding achievement. Yeah right. I'm not going to get invited into NHS at my own school, so don't try and convince me that your 'elite Scholars association' wants me. I'm not buying it.
So I'm sorry for the extreme rant here but other than this continuous feeling of lack of productivity, life is good right now.
i've got my hands in my pockets and my head in the clouds
this is how i do when i think about youu <3
But I just kinda want to rant? Even though no one reads this...I don't really care.
I always feel so unproductive (is that the word?) lately. I always feel like whenever I have any free time, there's something wrong. But I LOVE free time. And I can't enjoy it during the week anymore because I feel like there is always something for school that I could or should be doing, or that I should be going out and applying for jobs which I need to do more but I can't drive quite yet. And my grades aren't nearly as good as they were last year, and I'm not terribly unhappy with them (Except Chemistry) but I just feel like they are slipping. Even though they're not awful. And it's so odd that now is when I keep getting these random things in the mail that look like they are so incredibly wonderful and elite, when if they really were they would never be sending me things now, now that my grades are not nearly as good as they could be. These so-called societies of honors students across America who claim they want me because of my outstanding achievement. Yeah right. I'm not going to get invited into NHS at my own school, so don't try and convince me that your 'elite Scholars association' wants me. I'm not buying it.
So I'm sorry for the extreme rant here but other than this continuous feeling of lack of productivity, life is good right now.
i've got my hands in my pockets and my head in the clouds
this is how i do when i think about youu <3