wata
You know I am feeling a little bit better. I talked with Athena and she was saying how I shouldn't regret my time that I spent with said person. She said there is nothing wrong with caring about a person and showing your mature enough to own your own feelings. And that all you can do is learn from the experience and try not to be bitter or revengeful or feel like you wasted all your time. That it is a wonderful thing to care about someone and it is my misfortune to have met a total jerk who couldn't reciprocate. That I have nothing to be regretful about, because caring about someone and spending time talking with them and trying to help them is a noble thing. Even though I burn with total anger and bitterness and betrayal. This is a really good outlook to have. Since just cause you acted in a certain way and I have a feeling like, "this is the thanks I get" for putting up with all there bullshit drama and taking them back after they were so upset. Really I just cared about somebody. I will try to adopt this noble outlook even though I am completly bitter at the moment.