I CANT LOOSE HIM!

[wishupon_mystar]

YOU KNOW THINGS JUST DONT GO GOOD! DO THEY! I GUESS NOT! MY HEARTS LIKE BREAKING N STUFF!FOR ANYONE WHO DOESNT KNOW MY PAPA NICK IS VERY SICK... HE HAS HEART FAILURE, N KIDNEY FAILURE... N KNOW HE IS BLEEDING REALLY BADLY! N MY FRICKEN MOM WONT SHUT THE HELL UP BOUT IT SHES SITTING THERE ON THE PHONE TALKING N TALKING BOUT IT..ITS KILLING ME.. THEY CALLED MY GREAT GRANDPAS KIDS IN... N MY COUSINS FROM PHILLI ARE SUPPOST TO BE HERE BY FRIDAY! THIS CANT HAPPEN... I DONT KNOW WHAT I WILL DO WITH OUT HIM.. HE KNOW EVERYTHING.. HES ALWAYS THERE NO MATTER WHAT.. ITS MEAN BUT I WASNT SO CLOSE TO MY GREAT GRANDMA N KNOW IM CLOSE WITH MY GREAT GRANDPA... HES LIKE THE ONLY ONE U CAN ACTUALLY TELL THINGS TO N HE WILL LISTEN N BE THERE FOR YOU! N KNOW WERE JUST SITTING HERE WAITING TO SEE WHATS GONNA HAPPEN!! YOU GUYS DONT KNOW THAT HE JUST CANT GO!!! I CANT LOOSE HIM! FOR LIKE 3 WEEKS EVEYONE TALKING BOUT IT.. EVERY ONES LIKE ITS GONNA HAPPEN! DO THEY KNOW I DONT WANT TO HEAR IT! ITS NOT GONNA HAPPEN I SWEAR IT CANT! I CAN ACTUALLY FEEL MY HEART BREAKING! IT SUCKS I WENT UP THERE N I WAS LIKE LEAVING N STUFF N I WAS LIKE I LOVE YOU PA NICK.. N HE JUST DOESNT SAY IT BACK.. HE NEVER SAYS HE LOVES ANYONE BACK!! I JUST WANNA GO UP THERE N SEE HIM! BUT MY MOM WONT LET ME!! THIS IS KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR TEAR!!!!!!

bailey!