Everytime I try to fly I fall, without my wings I feel so small...
I am depressed. It happens.
I want to start school, meet new people, quit my job at Houlihan's.
I'm going to come out with it: I like Ricky. I still like him. I feel like an asshole for saying I don't, and for being a jerk to him the entire time we were 'seeing' eachother. I was a jerk to him for weeks, he was a jerk to me for one day, and I had to freak out. I miss talking to him.
But I don't deserve anyone right now. I'm going to be a 30 year old virgin just because I can't handle myself around guys. I'm an idiot.
To try an compennsate for the fact that I can no longer be around Ricky, I figured I would try and go after Patrick. Hah. I get his number, call him to maybe see if we could hang out, and he PUTS HIS FRIEND ON THE PHONE! WTF?! He's been trying to hook me up with this friend, and it's like 'OMG! I like you, not your friend you idiot!!' Just my luck...
No Ricky.
No Patrick.
No Alan.
No Ben.
No Trevor.
No anyone.
*thumbs up*
I want to start school, meet new people, quit my job at Houlihan's.
I'm going to come out with it: I like Ricky. I still like him. I feel like an asshole for saying I don't, and for being a jerk to him the entire time we were 'seeing' eachother. I was a jerk to him for weeks, he was a jerk to me for one day, and I had to freak out. I miss talking to him.
But I don't deserve anyone right now. I'm going to be a 30 year old virgin just because I can't handle myself around guys. I'm an idiot.
To try an compennsate for the fact that I can no longer be around Ricky, I figured I would try and go after Patrick. Hah. I get his number, call him to maybe see if we could hang out, and he PUTS HIS FRIEND ON THE PHONE! WTF?! He's been trying to hook me up with this friend, and it's like 'OMG! I like you, not your friend you idiot!!' Just my luck...
No Ricky.
No Patrick.
No Alan.
No Ben.
No Trevor.
No anyone.
*thumbs up*