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I am excited for my future. I know that things are falling into place, and all is travelling in the right direction. This summer i have experienced nothing but truth and revelations. I have been able to explore myself and really learn things about my life. It has been challenging, to really look inside myself, honestly. But its refreshing in a sense, to be honest and see what is really there. Refreshing and suprisingly, i'm not scared.
I think people just get to the point where they're sick of lying to themselves (or im hoping, thats what i might be trying to say.)
Then again there are those people who literally nest in the darkness.
I know how that is; i envy those who cannot reach that point. Isn't it funny when you come from what feels like the underworld, and you realize people are trying to make the world believe that they've visited there too? And most, fortunately, haven't. It's just unfortunate that they wish they had. It is really not all it seems to be. It is absolute misery; i will say it again. Absolute misery.
However, when you return from the bottum, it is the most satisfying feeling to just be able to breathe again; and not worry about who's looking at you. Who's thinking about you. Who's talking about you. Why the world hates you so. It is an amazing thing, to be able to realize you're the same person you were, and be able to do the things that people do not even normally think about, freely.
It is essentially a lovely experience if you can get through it, because the outcome is extraordinary.
The world is a beautiful place and i can't wait to see more of it.
I think people just get to the point where they're sick of lying to themselves (or im hoping, thats what i might be trying to say.)
Then again there are those people who literally nest in the darkness.
I know how that is; i envy those who cannot reach that point. Isn't it funny when you come from what feels like the underworld, and you realize people are trying to make the world believe that they've visited there too? And most, fortunately, haven't. It's just unfortunate that they wish they had. It is really not all it seems to be. It is absolute misery; i will say it again. Absolute misery.
However, when you return from the bottum, it is the most satisfying feeling to just be able to breathe again; and not worry about who's looking at you. Who's thinking about you. Who's talking about you. Why the world hates you so. It is an amazing thing, to be able to realize you're the same person you were, and be able to do the things that people do not even normally think about, freely.
It is essentially a lovely experience if you can get through it, because the outcome is extraordinary.
The world is a beautiful place and i can't wait to see more of it.