This is life and I hate it
1So lets talk about stress, lots and lots of stress. I have it... in abundance. Recently to catch everyone up Ive been completely bogged down in work and school. This class president thing is killing me and the play is making me ripshit. Friday I say Little Shop at Cheavrus and was quite impressed, no I cant stand feeling like Anything Goes wont be ready to go on and will suck complete ass. Saturday I worked for 11 hrs then went to a party. It was good, for a drama party. If you dont know dont ask, drama parties are kind of exclusive bitches. Anyway So i get woken up sunday go to work and on my way there BAM, totalled my car. I mean destroyed, through a telephone poll, not comming back ever, destroyed. Ive never been more stress out in my life. Figures it happens a week after I put over $2500 into it, peice of shit. I just kicked open my door and screamed for a good 5 minutes, by then end I was on my knees screaming fuck you to that worthless piece of shit up on high. I mean what an asshole, are you TRYING to kill me. I mean atleast succeed next time, then I wouldnt have to deal with all the shit that comes after it. Now I have no money, no car, soon to be no friends. Life is sucky and basically I want to fight the universe. So if I seem pissed off to you when you see me its cause I am. I really want to jump off something high or die for a cause, but yet again I cant even do that. Its bullshit, my life. I need to leave soon, and go some where far away by myself. Recently it has come to my attention that people think me a pig and other various "not-so-nice" labels. Well fuck you too. Call me a pig, look at you fucks who have nothing better to do then sit around and gossip about shit you dont even know about. People piss me off, so two faced. If you have a grudge or you need to bring up some moot point thats pissing you off, then do it two my face not your little fake-friend bitches. I tired of all this shit. I never asked to be who I am, but I am so deal with it. Class President or not, sometimes I just plain hate some of you sometimes and Im sorry for that but Im only human. Im a pig, YOU'RE the pigs. Talking behind your backs about stuff that doesnt concern you. Man, just shut the hell up. Ive had a hell of a last couple fo years. Ive learned that shit happens and just to take the punches and turn it into something benifits you no matter how hard. Atleast Im LIVING my life, atleast Im doing what I want. If I want to mess around and have fun and sex, big deal I will. If I want to get drunk, do drugs, take to many painkillers, swear, hit things, and tell that big heavenly asshole to fuck off, I will. Thats life deal with it. Ive had a head ache for the last nine years, and I dont sleep. Sorry If I get angery, but sometimes even that fat, friendly awkward redhairy kid can only take so much of the shit you throw at him. So this is it, a challenge. If you have something to say say it to me. Be blunt, or dont think it dont say it dont do anything concerning me. I have to much shit to deal with, I dont need yours. One year and Im gone, somewhere far away. And I know half of you will still be stuck in this hellhole talking about could have beens and your uneventful lives. I havent felt this dead being alive for years, but thats not gonna stop me from living. So this is for you...
those who keep me down, I'll fight you with every breath I cant manage.
fuck stress, Im better then this