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[wishingtoohard]

i don't like being sick. i feel so tired, so weak. i also don't like hospitals and iv's, and weird ultrasounds and wheelchairs. and i hate that everytime something serious like this happens, i end up with this scared/nervous laughing thing that i do. it makes me look like a freak and like i'm not in as much pain as i claim to be when, really, i am.

i just don't want to feel tired anymore.