wow
So much has happened and I have no one to blame except myself. I just wish I could keep myself out of trouble for more than one god damn minute. I don't know how I'm going to get myslef out of this. The things they're asking me to do are outragious. My stress is so unbelievable that I can't sleep and be happy. When I do finally sleep I have terrible nightmares that cause me to wake up crying and shaking cause they are so real and scary. I hate this and wish that I was no longer here as well.
On another note it is exactly 2 years ago that you kissed me. I never thought I would have feelings for you like I do but yeah. It's not fair how you lead me on and then say no I don't want you. I know you're getting out of a very long realtionship but she's moved on so why can't you? Do you know how good you could have it? I'm sick of you playing with my heart and flirting with other people right in front of me and then ignoring me!!!!!!!!!!! Ever since I asked you that question it's been nothing but problems. Do you think I did it to myself. Stop being so shelfish and talk to me. That's why we have so many problems...it's because you don't talk about them you ass fuck. Well I'm going to go and try to talk to you about this shit because if things don't get better by sunday I don't think I can go to the party because you're just going to treat me like shit.
Maybe I'll get in a car accident and won't have to face anymore of my problems. That's it for now
On another note it is exactly 2 years ago that you kissed me. I never thought I would have feelings for you like I do but yeah. It's not fair how you lead me on and then say no I don't want you. I know you're getting out of a very long realtionship but she's moved on so why can't you? Do you know how good you could have it? I'm sick of you playing with my heart and flirting with other people right in front of me and then ignoring me!!!!!!!!!!! Ever since I asked you that question it's been nothing but problems. Do you think I did it to myself. Stop being so shelfish and talk to me. That's why we have so many problems...it's because you don't talk about them you ass fuck. Well I'm going to go and try to talk to you about this shit because if things don't get better by sunday I don't think I can go to the party because you're just going to treat me like shit.
Maybe I'll get in a car accident and won't have to face anymore of my problems. That's it for now