exeter's still here, well, not really

[wishing_i_was]

sorry guys. that last entry sounded completely stuck up.

i still have exeter friends, though the seniors are gone, and that makes me sad.

but i would never go back to triton. everything would be too different. people have new friends, and yes, i really do feel replaced. but i can't blame you. i have new friends too. i didn't expect you to just sit around and cry over my leaving, cause i was sure none of you would. i was the only one doing the crying when i left. last year, last day of school, last day of triton, i cried soo much. i listened to avril lavigne's song 'i miss you' endlessly when i got home until danielle and nikki came over

you know, i'm writing another song, and it's completely true.

you make me feel so alive
i only live for the next day i can see you
i've reassessed my life
and when i leave you i can't stop myself from crying

i always used to cry in the car on the way home from movie nights. i doubt i will anymore. i didn't cry on the last day of school for exeter and i wasn't sure why. i didn't think i'd cry on triton's last day cause i didn't even see anyone, but i did. i miss you all like no other and wouldn't mind some reassurance

great friend you used to be
the best that i ever had
but then you replaced me
and you don't even feel bad

that's the last verse in another song i'm writing called love and loss. just thought you should know