I'm tired.
This week has gone so damn f**king wrong for me that I can't even laugh at the hysterics that is my life as usual. I spent a total of 7 days to that IBS proposal. 7 days. Plus my period, which had not come in 2 long months decided to visit me on Monday. That's okay. Unfortunately it made me feel sick, woozy and weak on Tuesday, so I had to forgo ATM tutorial as I didn't even had strength to go get myself water to drink. I finally completed the IBS proposal at 6am on Wednesday morning. Slept for 1 hour and had to wake up, bathe, dress, make up, pack, and it was raining. A huge rain which made it impossible to catch a stupid cab. Waited by the roadside for 20 minutes. 20 minutes. By the time I arrived at school, it was just in time for my turn. This man is so f**king irritating. First, he complimented my proposal, said it was so well done and pretty and that I am articulate and well prepared and that I present myself well. BUT I WAS NOT SINCERE ENOUGH. What the hell does that mean???!!!!! He gave me B++ and said it was a few marks away from A. So why don't you just give me the damn A! This is so bullshit...
Then today, I realised I did not do my cover letter and resume for the CSC interview. Every single thing was against me. The printer did not work, the computer was crazy, it rained again... Obviously, I was late again. At last, something went well for me, I caught a cab the moment I reached the road, Mr Sng did not hold it against me for being late and the interview went okay.
Yet, time is still going against me. It is going too fast for my liking. LLM, WISP, ITTP, ET, CEM, EXAMS, THEY ARE ALL COMING. Time is pressing so hard against me that I feel like I am suffocating. I can't breathe. I am drowning. Drowning in what, you say? My weakness, my incompetence, my procrastinating, my work, my life. I'm tired, so tired... I'm feeling so cold, not the temperature kind, but the kind where you are so frustrated and tired and you just want to rest, hide from everything, avoid everybody and have some alone time. That is all I want. Is it too much to ask?
Then today, I realised I did not do my cover letter and resume for the CSC interview. Every single thing was against me. The printer did not work, the computer was crazy, it rained again... Obviously, I was late again. At last, something went well for me, I caught a cab the moment I reached the road, Mr Sng did not hold it against me for being late and the interview went okay.
Yet, time is still going against me. It is going too fast for my liking. LLM, WISP, ITTP, ET, CEM, EXAMS, THEY ARE ALL COMING. Time is pressing so hard against me that I feel like I am suffocating. I can't breathe. I am drowning. Drowning in what, you say? My weakness, my incompetence, my procrastinating, my work, my life. I'm tired, so tired... I'm feeling so cold, not the temperature kind, but the kind where you are so frustrated and tired and you just want to rest, hide from everything, avoid everybody and have some alone time. That is all I want. Is it too much to ask?