well its been quite some time...
its been just about a month since my last entry. im AmAzEd at the fun ive had so far... i am LOVING college and everything it brings. i do miss the closeness of high school... but i love the feeling of seeing someone you havent seen in such a long time that you cant help but give them a hug like its been a FOREVER... because thats what it feels like.
college has made me realize more about guys then ive ever wanted to know. i hate men mentality. its rough not to eventually think the same way they do. sometimes i think it would just be easier not to get attached easily and just have fun!!! but at the same time... theres nothing i want more... then to fall in love. i see all of these couples that have lasted so long and seem so perfect for one another and you can tell how happy they are just by the look in their eyes. i want that. i want to be able to have someone that i cant stand to not be around, and anticipate every time i see them. i want that butterflies in your stomach,
sparkle in your eye,
smiling all the time...
Happiness.
but i guess its just one of those things you cant really go out and look for. it just kind of comes along... when you're least expecting it.
apparently i think too much.
last night, jon and i sat on the roof of his moms minivan watching the stars and talking until the sun was almost up. hes honestly one of the best friends ill ever have... and im incredibly sad to think about him leaving in january. makes my heart wrench. who else would come over at 2 in the morning just to look at the stars... or let me sleep over when i was too stubborn to go home. hes one of the only guys ill ever respect, even though he thinks i shouldnt. im gonna miss him way too much.
its like losing doug... all over again. i hate the military... it steals everyone close to me. i haaaate it. 5 years is far too long.
this is probably one of the most heartfelt entries ive written in a while... but i guess thats what basically being up for 4 days straight for no good reason does to you. makes you too emotional for your own good.
its so funny... because the past month ive been everything BUT emotional. ive had the best time ever these past few weeks... but i think its finally starting to catch up with me. i need to learn how to balance the two. haha
uhm... lets see... my classes are so great. not too hard, but challenging enough to keep my interest and keep me on my toes. i love college. i really do.
anyways... its 230 in the morning... i have no reason to be awake... except for the mere fact that i dont have any reason to sleep... considering i have nothing to do tomorrow... no class, no work... what am i gonna do with my day!? lol... im sure ill find something. cleaning being probably the only thing i do all day... whatevs.
i should go to bed though i guess... nothing better to do.
love you all!
goodnight!!!
xoxox
college has made me realize more about guys then ive ever wanted to know. i hate men mentality. its rough not to eventually think the same way they do. sometimes i think it would just be easier not to get attached easily and just have fun!!! but at the same time... theres nothing i want more... then to fall in love. i see all of these couples that have lasted so long and seem so perfect for one another and you can tell how happy they are just by the look in their eyes. i want that. i want to be able to have someone that i cant stand to not be around, and anticipate every time i see them. i want that butterflies in your stomach,
sparkle in your eye,
smiling all the time...
Happiness.
but i guess its just one of those things you cant really go out and look for. it just kind of comes along... when you're least expecting it.
apparently i think too much.
last night, jon and i sat on the roof of his moms minivan watching the stars and talking until the sun was almost up. hes honestly one of the best friends ill ever have... and im incredibly sad to think about him leaving in january. makes my heart wrench. who else would come over at 2 in the morning just to look at the stars... or let me sleep over when i was too stubborn to go home. hes one of the only guys ill ever respect, even though he thinks i shouldnt. im gonna miss him way too much.
its like losing doug... all over again. i hate the military... it steals everyone close to me. i haaaate it. 5 years is far too long.
this is probably one of the most heartfelt entries ive written in a while... but i guess thats what basically being up for 4 days straight for no good reason does to you. makes you too emotional for your own good.
its so funny... because the past month ive been everything BUT emotional. ive had the best time ever these past few weeks... but i think its finally starting to catch up with me. i need to learn how to balance the two. haha
uhm... lets see... my classes are so great. not too hard, but challenging enough to keep my interest and keep me on my toes. i love college. i really do.
anyways... its 230 in the morning... i have no reason to be awake... except for the mere fact that i dont have any reason to sleep... considering i have nothing to do tomorrow... no class, no work... what am i gonna do with my day!? lol... im sure ill find something. cleaning being probably the only thing i do all day... whatevs.
i should go to bed though i guess... nothing better to do.
love you all!
goodnight!!!
xoxox