I'M OFFICIALLY FREE!!! I'M FREE AND OVER HIM!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! oh yeah and the fair was fun too.
well, my life is gotten a little out of hand.
my parents came home wednesday. yeah 10 minutes into them being home, me and my dad got in a fight. ever since then he's been kinda weird towards me. like he's got a chip on his shoulder. any little thing i say he takes it the wrong way and there we go again fighting. it sucks.
i spent the nite with jessica blasingim last nite. we stayed up all nite talking. then today we went to the fair. i saw jakob but he didn't hang out with me at all hardly. he was with his cousin marissa and they were flirting with each other alot! eeew!! i mean i know we live in the south but not THAT far south! they're first cousins too!
ok well there's been some stuff going on between me and jakob. like first we were starting to grow apart and not talk that much anymore. then we start talking again. oh and i started liking him AGAIN. but don't worry i'm still single. let me just tell you what i did today.
see, i planned out that i was gonna tell him so i told him that i needed to talk to him about something kinda private. he basically guessed what it was before i even got him alone to tell him. so finally i got him alone and it took me a while to say it but this is what all i said:
"ok i'm gonna just say flat out. and i'm not expecting you to say anything. in fact i don't think i want to to say much at all. but anyway...i like you. there we go. i said it. i like you, jakob. and you know what? i don't care if you feel the same way or if you don't like me at all. i really don't care. i just needed to tell you cuz i was bugging the crap out of me. and you can just forget that i ever said anything if you want. it's just that i had to get it out and tell you. wow! i feel so much better now!"
he just kinda laughed and said "ok? so you like me? again??" and i looked him straight in the eyes and said "yup. but now that i told you i really don't have anything else to say. so i'm gonna go find jessica." and so i went back to his cousin and i went back to jessica.
but you know? when i told him, i didn't expect him to say that he liked me back (and i don't think he does) or to ask me out or anything. i didn't think that any of that would happen at all. ok so now you're probebly thinking i'm weird for telling him but i feel so much better. and you know what? i think that i'm now offically over him. completely. cuz now i dont have any feelings for him. so i think all i had to do to get completely over him was to just go ahead and tell him straight out. i mean i'm so much happier now! but i really don't know what it's gonna be like from now on. like if he's gonna be avoiding me now. cuz i wonder if i freaked him out or anything. haha! if i did, that's funny! oh well. anyway.
dude. i think that i was lookin pretty good today (not to sound vain or anything cuz i'm not) and there were like a whole bunch of guys who liked me. some were really hot too. and i told jessica's cousin that he was hott just for the heck of it (well he was!). he just laughed and said "well, thanks!"
omg. i saw jacob quillen at the fair today. and jessica was talking about how hott he was. well i thought he had walked on by and was gone so i said "i don't like jacob quillen. he's so full of himself that it makes him very unattractive to me. if he ever asked me out i would totally blow him off. he may have every girl's heart at loretto high and LCHS but this is one girl who would never go out with him." well then i turned around and THERE HE WAS! standing right there about 5 feet away from me. but you know what? i hope he heard what i said cuz if he did maybe that made him think a little bit. lol! heck, i hope he says something to me about it cuz if he does i'll tell him straight up what i think about him. right to his face. haha! that would be ausome!
well,i better go. ttyl.
my parents came home wednesday. yeah 10 minutes into them being home, me and my dad got in a fight. ever since then he's been kinda weird towards me. like he's got a chip on his shoulder. any little thing i say he takes it the wrong way and there we go again fighting. it sucks.
i spent the nite with jessica blasingim last nite. we stayed up all nite talking. then today we went to the fair. i saw jakob but he didn't hang out with me at all hardly. he was with his cousin marissa and they were flirting with each other alot! eeew!! i mean i know we live in the south but not THAT far south! they're first cousins too!
ok well there's been some stuff going on between me and jakob. like first we were starting to grow apart and not talk that much anymore. then we start talking again. oh and i started liking him AGAIN. but don't worry i'm still single. let me just tell you what i did today.
see, i planned out that i was gonna tell him so i told him that i needed to talk to him about something kinda private. he basically guessed what it was before i even got him alone to tell him. so finally i got him alone and it took me a while to say it but this is what all i said:
"ok i'm gonna just say flat out. and i'm not expecting you to say anything. in fact i don't think i want to to say much at all. but anyway...i like you. there we go. i said it. i like you, jakob. and you know what? i don't care if you feel the same way or if you don't like me at all. i really don't care. i just needed to tell you cuz i was bugging the crap out of me. and you can just forget that i ever said anything if you want. it's just that i had to get it out and tell you. wow! i feel so much better now!"
he just kinda laughed and said "ok? so you like me? again??" and i looked him straight in the eyes and said "yup. but now that i told you i really don't have anything else to say. so i'm gonna go find jessica." and so i went back to his cousin and i went back to jessica.
but you know? when i told him, i didn't expect him to say that he liked me back (and i don't think he does) or to ask me out or anything. i didn't think that any of that would happen at all. ok so now you're probebly thinking i'm weird for telling him but i feel so much better. and you know what? i think that i'm now offically over him. completely. cuz now i dont have any feelings for him. so i think all i had to do to get completely over him was to just go ahead and tell him straight out. i mean i'm so much happier now! but i really don't know what it's gonna be like from now on. like if he's gonna be avoiding me now. cuz i wonder if i freaked him out or anything. haha! if i did, that's funny! oh well. anyway.
dude. i think that i was lookin pretty good today (not to sound vain or anything cuz i'm not) and there were like a whole bunch of guys who liked me. some were really hot too. and i told jessica's cousin that he was hott just for the heck of it (well he was!). he just laughed and said "well, thanks!"
omg. i saw jacob quillen at the fair today. and jessica was talking about how hott he was. well i thought he had walked on by and was gone so i said "i don't like jacob quillen. he's so full of himself that it makes him very unattractive to me. if he ever asked me out i would totally blow him off. he may have every girl's heart at loretto high and LCHS but this is one girl who would never go out with him." well then i turned around and THERE HE WAS! standing right there about 5 feet away from me. but you know what? i hope he heard what i said cuz if he did maybe that made him think a little bit. lol! heck, i hope he says something to me about it cuz if he does i'll tell him straight up what i think about him. right to his face. haha! that would be ausome!
well,i better go. ttyl.