so tired..
finally i've found more time to write in here. right now i feel really crappy though. it's the time of the month. i have a really bad headache, a stomach ache, and yeah. basically just real sucky.
i think i should update on the thing with john. we were at his house the other night. he was playing video games, and i was reading his sisters magazine. then we just started to talk n he sat on one end of his bed, and i just looked at him, and basically told him how i felt lately. i was so nervous though.. i had no idea what words to use. i said whatever came to my mind, and he looked at me, with this stunned look. i felt quite stupid, and he said he was surprised because of how we were so brother/sister-like. he said he had his own feelings for me as well, but he wanted to hold off on them untill he knew if it'd be good or not to take action upon it. but i'm absolutely fine with that, because now he knows how i feel, and we're still close. we do the little flirting here and there, like when we're walking he'll grab my hand or something. i don't know. it's kind of nice, but at the same time i want someone just like him. ohh how gushy.
anyways, christmas shopping is going pretty well. i've gotten most peoples gifts, and i'm running real low on $$. i was in abercrombie trying on these vintage super low stretch jeans, a catherine turtle neck and keegan cable sweater, when i hear about the magazine isn't being sold anymore? right. i thought you could only buy it if you were 18 or older. so what's the issue? if anyone knows, let me know.
i think i should catch up on some homework. i also have to fill out some more college apps. i'm thinking about a few schools, but i'm not sure if i want to be close to home, or be far away in which it'd be trouble to get home. oh well, we'll see.
i'll update soon. hope you all have a nice week/weekend. xo <3
i think i should update on the thing with john. we were at his house the other night. he was playing video games, and i was reading his sisters magazine. then we just started to talk n he sat on one end of his bed, and i just looked at him, and basically told him how i felt lately. i was so nervous though.. i had no idea what words to use. i said whatever came to my mind, and he looked at me, with this stunned look. i felt quite stupid, and he said he was surprised because of how we were so brother/sister-like. he said he had his own feelings for me as well, but he wanted to hold off on them untill he knew if it'd be good or not to take action upon it. but i'm absolutely fine with that, because now he knows how i feel, and we're still close. we do the little flirting here and there, like when we're walking he'll grab my hand or something. i don't know. it's kind of nice, but at the same time i want someone just like him. ohh how gushy.
anyways, christmas shopping is going pretty well. i've gotten most peoples gifts, and i'm running real low on $$. i was in abercrombie trying on these vintage super low stretch jeans, a catherine turtle neck and keegan cable sweater, when i hear about the magazine isn't being sold anymore? right. i thought you could only buy it if you were 18 or older. so what's the issue? if anyone knows, let me know.
i think i should catch up on some homework. i also have to fill out some more college apps. i'm thinking about a few schools, but i'm not sure if i want to be close to home, or be far away in which it'd be trouble to get home. oh well, we'll see.
i'll update soon. hope you all have a nice week/weekend. xo <3