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thursday: i went shopping..got a super cute&cheap jacket, jewelry & a shirt..yay. hung out with my brother for awhile. i went up to northwoods to watch my dad's game. then i headed to barnes & nobles to look for some cds & get me a frap. saw some hottttt people there. called taylor & him & jordan came & hung out with me. travis was supposed to meet me for a movie but hey whatever. i shopped around & got..well lets see..i bought 2 things of conditioner from bath & body works. 2 bucks each=im a thrifty person. in old navy i bought a scarf=$4. woohoo. the police thought taylor & jordan were harassing me. yeah some whore actually called the po's. sooo, they followed me all night. i had such a swell evening with myself..its unreal. i advise you all to spend a night alone, go on a date with yourself. its relaxing & such a good way to clear your mind. i feel ten times better. i dont know if you all realize how much i miss my two best friends. life is so incomplete with out them right now. i dont know how much more i can take of this seperation. i miss a lot of things & people. ive just kind of let them go..let them slip away from me. i wonder if that makes me a bad person? everyone has made the effort to get in touch, but for some unknown reason i just ignore them. i dont have anything against anyone..i guess it's nice for me to spend some time for myself, by myself. i dont know about a lot of relationships right now.

i regret ever letting myself love you. i stood by your side. you meant the world & more to me. i gave you six months of me. i trusted you. i cared about you. you were my everything. you had me. the "i love you's" are just words..they'll never mean anything because i know you arent sincere. you know this isnt going to last..we should just stop Jordan.