Big Girls Don't Cry
As petty and retarted as this might sound. I'm going postal. I havent been ontime for school in... like 2 weeks... its 12 on sunday night I'm wide awake. I havent done any homework nothing. I CAN NOT GO INTO SEINOR MODE YET! I need to bring my GPA up SO FUCKING BAD! I'm hopeing that maybe in a few weekends I might run and hide somewhere thats not home weather its UVM or NYC, or somewhere unknown to me. I would infact like to run far away.
Kristen said something to me today... something along the lines of "you have grown up more sence I moved away then when I lived there (there being Natick)." I think its prob becuase she sees me less often and because a year makes a HUGE diffrence in someone. I don't remeber what it was like when kristen lived here. she moved out beinging of my Shopmore year of high school. That seems so far away. I miss it SO MUCH I miss being blissfuly unawhere of how fast college was comeing and how good my grades actuly where. What it comes down to is I really am afraid of college but need to embrace it because it's going to help me grow up.
For today...
I woke up at noon with a cat on me. Called Kristen to hang out with her before she left to go back home. Went out with Kristen to Old Navy picked up some new shirts for the winter ahead. Came home ate Mac and Chezze and did nothing now its mindnight and I'm going to do my pre calc and sleep before something bad happends to me like a fail a pre calc test THAT WOULD SUCK! alrighty I'm off to bed
Kristen said something to me today... something along the lines of "you have grown up more sence I moved away then when I lived there (there being Natick)." I think its prob becuase she sees me less often and because a year makes a HUGE diffrence in someone. I don't remeber what it was like when kristen lived here. she moved out beinging of my Shopmore year of high school. That seems so far away. I miss it SO MUCH I miss being blissfuly unawhere of how fast college was comeing and how good my grades actuly where. What it comes down to is I really am afraid of college but need to embrace it because it's going to help me grow up.
For today...
I woke up at noon with a cat on me. Called Kristen to hang out with her before she left to go back home. Went out with Kristen to Old Navy picked up some new shirts for the winter ahead. Came home ate Mac and Chezze and did nothing now its mindnight and I'm going to do my pre calc and sleep before something bad happends to me like a fail a pre calc test THAT WOULD SUCK! alrighty I'm off to bed