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When it comes to shutting people out from my life I am God. Sitting secretly listening, learning, and enjoying all my observations either in mockery or entertainment…but glance, even stare, at me and good luck at getting passed my plastered emotions.
I understand the power people possess that enables them to determine what and how much knowledge people withdraw from them, their words, and their actions. I conserve my personality, restrain any personal conversation, then preserve my thoughts to encounter when I’m free to express my feelings.
You see, pushing people out is one thing because acting is part of life…acting polite when in a foreign country and adapting to their culture. Going up to a rock star who was just on the front cover, acting like a fan, when really despising their music. Holding back tears after hurting yourself to hold up the act of not being hurt.
The mind is a different story however, humans only using a small percentage of the brain are inferior to it. I read what disorders and diseases come from denying what the mind knows is true, so instead of fighting against it, I wait until my shutting and pushing puts enough distance between me and whatever I’m fighting against to allow myself some comfort.
I control who I shut out, but rumors, secrets, and imagines rule me.
Of course I’m always looking to improve.
I understand the power people possess that enables them to determine what and how much knowledge people withdraw from them, their words, and their actions. I conserve my personality, restrain any personal conversation, then preserve my thoughts to encounter when I’m free to express my feelings.
You see, pushing people out is one thing because acting is part of life…acting polite when in a foreign country and adapting to their culture. Going up to a rock star who was just on the front cover, acting like a fan, when really despising their music. Holding back tears after hurting yourself to hold up the act of not being hurt.
The mind is a different story however, humans only using a small percentage of the brain are inferior to it. I read what disorders and diseases come from denying what the mind knows is true, so instead of fighting against it, I wait until my shutting and pushing puts enough distance between me and whatever I’m fighting against to allow myself some comfort.
I control who I shut out, but rumors, secrets, and imagines rule me.
Of course I’m always looking to improve.