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Today has to be one of the worst days Ive had in a long time. Started out good.. and then I cried almost all day. I dont even know where to start..... god Im stupid. Stupid for thinking he loved me, cared and wasnt fucking other people. Stupid for thinking he changed, that he wouldnt do that to me. Shit. What a fucking moron.
When he was here the other day I noticed he was signing up for hotornot. I was curious why he would do that. Being "happily married", but I didnt say anything. I let it be. I let all the comments lately go. The little fights. Thinking nothing of it. Accusing me of cheating on him, I let it go, because I wasnt. I even asked him if he was gonna leave me because we werent spending alot of time together lately. His response was it wasnt like hes out looking for girls. Not even close to what I had asked. I let that go.
My phone got shut off. So I cant call him, so I emailed him instead. I got no response. I sent him a msg on myspace, and got nothing, even though Im not even added to his list. I see that he saw my msg on here so I was curious. SO YES, I looked in his email to see if he checked that. Instead I found that he had a msg from loveaccess.com, regarding a msg from a member. A love personals site. So I went there. Sure as hell theres his id and password stored on my computer. I saw his profile. It said "Never married". With this info:
"About Me
Let's see how can I describe myself? Well I am short. 5'6 to tell the truth. I have a solid build. I enjoy music rock, rap, country, punk whatever. I sing....In the car. Doesn't everyone? I think I am pretty spontaneous, I have a great sence of humor. I work in the environmental science field. I enjoy going out in groups and having fun. I can dance. I enjoy a good joke. I feel like an idiot talking about myself. Is that normal? So anywho enough about me, you look wonderful, and that smile is beautiful. To make a long story short, if you are looking to meet someone new and have a great time wether it would be going to the movies, the beach, the moon, maybe dancing or to a concert even a beer at the bar or just sitting at home just hit me up. It will be memorable to say the least. Oh yeah, I can read so I guess I am looking for a fun energetic posative person. If you don't like you I might not either. Not really into lazy or non-adventurous people either, I love to travel and go on vacations, do you?
About You
I already said this in the last part but I like confident, happy, funny, wild, cute women. Maybe even a little stuborn. Someone who enjoys going places and see new and different things. Someone that will make me think. Speaking of thinking they really should have a brain."
I just sat there shocked. I see no way he can really explain this. I mean seriously?! Im so fucking hurt. The fact that we just celebrated one year together, I paid for the whole weekend and this is what I find out? God knows what hes already done. If he wanted to see other people it would of been nice to be told, but I know I did this to myself, by believe it would work out. What did I expect? I guess I love you means Im still gonna fuck you til I find someone else. SAFJDALSKJFR893O7RAOISDFJ ASDAFDMOTHERFUCKINGCOCKSUCKINGSONOFABITCH.
I guess we are even. I hope you rot in hell and get hit BY A FUCKING BUS YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING PEICE OF SHIT.
I actually cried for an hour before work and almost 4 whole hours at work.. and now Im crying again.. and all because Im a fucking moron.
When he was here the other day I noticed he was signing up for hotornot. I was curious why he would do that. Being "happily married", but I didnt say anything. I let it be. I let all the comments lately go. The little fights. Thinking nothing of it. Accusing me of cheating on him, I let it go, because I wasnt. I even asked him if he was gonna leave me because we werent spending alot of time together lately. His response was it wasnt like hes out looking for girls. Not even close to what I had asked. I let that go.
My phone got shut off. So I cant call him, so I emailed him instead. I got no response. I sent him a msg on myspace, and got nothing, even though Im not even added to his list. I see that he saw my msg on here so I was curious. SO YES, I looked in his email to see if he checked that. Instead I found that he had a msg from loveaccess.com, regarding a msg from a member. A love personals site. So I went there. Sure as hell theres his id and password stored on my computer. I saw his profile. It said "Never married". With this info:
"About Me
Let's see how can I describe myself? Well I am short. 5'6 to tell the truth. I have a solid build. I enjoy music rock, rap, country, punk whatever. I sing....In the car. Doesn't everyone? I think I am pretty spontaneous, I have a great sence of humor. I work in the environmental science field. I enjoy going out in groups and having fun. I can dance. I enjoy a good joke. I feel like an idiot talking about myself. Is that normal? So anywho enough about me, you look wonderful, and that smile is beautiful. To make a long story short, if you are looking to meet someone new and have a great time wether it would be going to the movies, the beach, the moon, maybe dancing or to a concert even a beer at the bar or just sitting at home just hit me up. It will be memorable to say the least. Oh yeah, I can read so I guess I am looking for a fun energetic posative person. If you don't like you I might not either. Not really into lazy or non-adventurous people either, I love to travel and go on vacations, do you?
About You
I already said this in the last part but I like confident, happy, funny, wild, cute women. Maybe even a little stuborn. Someone who enjoys going places and see new and different things. Someone that will make me think. Speaking of thinking they really should have a brain."
I just sat there shocked. I see no way he can really explain this. I mean seriously?! Im so fucking hurt. The fact that we just celebrated one year together, I paid for the whole weekend and this is what I find out? God knows what hes already done. If he wanted to see other people it would of been nice to be told, but I know I did this to myself, by believe it would work out. What did I expect? I guess I love you means Im still gonna fuck you til I find someone else. SAFJDALSKJFR893O7RAOISDFJ ASDAFDMOTHERFUCKINGCOCKSUCKINGSONOFABITCH.
I guess we are even. I hope you rot in hell and get hit BY A FUCKING BUS YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING PEICE OF SHIT.
I actually cried for an hour before work and almost 4 whole hours at work.. and now Im crying again.. and all because Im a fucking moron.