Yet another dissapointment
I am so pissed off right now
For a week I've been looking forward to going to the beach. Not for a week. Not for a couple of days. No, just for one day. At first it was suppose to be Lauren and Me, but she decided that she was going to visit her friend up in Cape May. Okay, fine. I'm fine with that. So instead I was going to take my brother. Actually, I assumed that I would be able to go at all. But no. My parents told me tonight, the night before I was to go to the beach that I wasn't allowed to go.
They told me that I had assumed that I could go, and since I'm never home, they decided to tell me tonight, the night before I was supposed to leave. The reason why I can't go? Cause they don't want me to drive. They seriously don't want me driving.
So I basically broke down and cried. I cried so much that I couldn't drive. My dad had to meet me somewhere in the neighboorhood I was crying so bad. I can't believe how much I was crying. You see, I just found out recently that the trip that I have been planning on taking was not going to happen. The trip to Florida. So now two things that I have been looking forward to have been ripped out from underneath of me. I tried to explain this to my father, and all he could do is talk to me about how I'm not responsible enough.
I'm just so upset because I've been working my ass off these past months, covering peoples shifts so they could go on vacations, and day trips to the beach. And now I can't have one measley day trip? Not even one?
Then my father saw how truly upset I was and said well, if Cj would go, then I was allowed to drive down. So I call Cj, and he's skeptical because of his cast, and how it would feel with sand in it. But, he compromises by saying that he could spend most of the day on the boardwalk. But then my dad said we could only drive as far as Cape Henlopen, which HAS no boardwalk. Cj then said, "Oh, sorry babe."
Yeah. Sorry. Sorry that I've given up a lot of free time to spend working more hours cause you have no income. Sorry I've spent a lot of my money on getting you food, movie tickets, and such because you can't work. Sorry that I've given up day trips to Six Flags becuase I knew YOU couldn't go. Sorry that I've spent my whole summer either with you doing nothing, or working in a place with no windows so I can't even SEE the sun.
I'm pissed, bitter, sad, upset, discouraged, and just plain fucking dissapointed.
I'm tired of doing things for others. If this is where it gets me, then fuck everyone else. From now on, no more shift covers, no more free food, and no more anything.
I'M DONE.
For a week I've been looking forward to going to the beach. Not for a week. Not for a couple of days. No, just for one day. At first it was suppose to be Lauren and Me, but she decided that she was going to visit her friend up in Cape May. Okay, fine. I'm fine with that. So instead I was going to take my brother. Actually, I assumed that I would be able to go at all. But no. My parents told me tonight, the night before I was to go to the beach that I wasn't allowed to go.
They told me that I had assumed that I could go, and since I'm never home, they decided to tell me tonight, the night before I was supposed to leave. The reason why I can't go? Cause they don't want me to drive. They seriously don't want me driving.
So I basically broke down and cried. I cried so much that I couldn't drive. My dad had to meet me somewhere in the neighboorhood I was crying so bad. I can't believe how much I was crying. You see, I just found out recently that the trip that I have been planning on taking was not going to happen. The trip to Florida. So now two things that I have been looking forward to have been ripped out from underneath of me. I tried to explain this to my father, and all he could do is talk to me about how I'm not responsible enough.
I'm just so upset because I've been working my ass off these past months, covering peoples shifts so they could go on vacations, and day trips to the beach. And now I can't have one measley day trip? Not even one?
Then my father saw how truly upset I was and said well, if Cj would go, then I was allowed to drive down. So I call Cj, and he's skeptical because of his cast, and how it would feel with sand in it. But, he compromises by saying that he could spend most of the day on the boardwalk. But then my dad said we could only drive as far as Cape Henlopen, which HAS no boardwalk. Cj then said, "Oh, sorry babe."
Yeah. Sorry. Sorry that I've given up a lot of free time to spend working more hours cause you have no income. Sorry I've spent a lot of my money on getting you food, movie tickets, and such because you can't work. Sorry that I've given up day trips to Six Flags becuase I knew YOU couldn't go. Sorry that I've spent my whole summer either with you doing nothing, or working in a place with no windows so I can't even SEE the sun.
I'm pissed, bitter, sad, upset, discouraged, and just plain fucking dissapointed.
I'm tired of doing things for others. If this is where it gets me, then fuck everyone else. From now on, no more shift covers, no more free food, and no more anything.
I'M DONE.