an update
seeing as its been nearly a year since i've used this. i may as well.
and since only one person reads it, i could write everything that has gone on but i dont know that i want to or that you really give a shit.
so i'll just go with whats going on lately...
hmm me and boyface decided to play a joke on everyone and pretend to get engaged, then it became real.
we fought a lot, and it was dumb. then we got into a real big fight, cuz hes pretty much just a loser. hes 21, has no job, no real education, etc. so at that time we broke it off. [the engagement] then about a month ago i broke up with him because i dont really remember why. it only took a day for us to get back together. now almost a week ago i broke up with him again, but he wont stop trying to get back together with me. he keeeps sleeping at my house, which i dont mind because i like the comfort of having someone next to me.
oh and before that i started school in september, went for about two weeks, then decided i fucking hated it and my friend was living with me at the time and she called me in everyday for about a month and a half or two. that school is a living hell... everyone is loud. dumb. dramatic(sure i'm dramatic too, but everyday, someone is mad at someone else). etcetera. (spelling? dont care..)
ahh what else. i'm depressed. duh. i dont know why. maybe because i miss the way life used to be. maybe because i dont have the life i want. maybe because i dont have the money to have the life i want. maybe because i hate the way i look and i AM that fucking shallow. maybe its.... everything.
oh dear me i dont want to think about this anymore.