i think that if last night had been any shittier i might have died.....
So im locked in the bathroom at my cousins house....i've got my discman and im listening to "Love lies Bleeding" by Funeral for a Friend/Elton John...im just getting over a phone call that i didnt know whether to be pissed or to cry over...
obviously with all i am dealing with right now, and a late party invitation which resulted in severe lack of plans..i cant help but burst into tears..partly because of earlier listed events and partly because of the damn song that reminds me of a certain someone...
(awesome band/song dont get me wrong)
not only am i upset about this but when i emerge from the bathroom Im bombarded with "hey lets do this and lets do that..." by what I am forced to call my family.
Not at all a pleasant evening...I think i may have almost cried myself to the point of dehydration. And today Im not at all feeling any better..This is one of those things that is going to lag on for a long time, and no one can help. I dont know whats coming over me, or why im so sad all of a sudden.
I know a certain factor that upsets me, which I have mentioned before, the one that will never be w/ me, and would never want to be. I may be thinking about his way too much, or overexaggerating it..but if this is love..fuck...
shoot me now....
~Funeral for a Friend/Love Lies Bleeding (Elton John/Bernie Taupin)
The roses in the window box
Have tilted to one side
Everything about this house
Is gonna grow and die
Well it doesn't seem a year ago
To this very day
You said sorry honey
If I don't change the pace
I can't face another day
[Chorus:]
And love lies bleeding in my hand
Oh it kills me to think of you with another man
I was playing rock and roll and you were just a fan
When my guitar couldn't hold you
So I split the band
Love lies bleeding in my hands
I wonder if those changes
Have left a scar on you
All the burning hoops of fire
That you and I passed through
You're a bluebird on a telegraph line
I hope you're happy now
While if the wind of change coming down your way girl
You'll make it back somehow
[Chorus]
[Chorus]
Love lies bleeding in my hands
obviously with all i am dealing with right now, and a late party invitation which resulted in severe lack of plans..i cant help but burst into tears..partly because of earlier listed events and partly because of the damn song that reminds me of a certain someone...
(awesome band/song dont get me wrong)
not only am i upset about this but when i emerge from the bathroom Im bombarded with "hey lets do this and lets do that..." by what I am forced to call my family.
Not at all a pleasant evening...I think i may have almost cried myself to the point of dehydration. And today Im not at all feeling any better..This is one of those things that is going to lag on for a long time, and no one can help. I dont know whats coming over me, or why im so sad all of a sudden.
I know a certain factor that upsets me, which I have mentioned before, the one that will never be w/ me, and would never want to be. I may be thinking about his way too much, or overexaggerating it..but if this is love..fuck...
shoot me now....
~Funeral for a Friend/Love Lies Bleeding (Elton John/Bernie Taupin)
The roses in the window box
Have tilted to one side
Everything about this house
Is gonna grow and die
Well it doesn't seem a year ago
To this very day
You said sorry honey
If I don't change the pace
I can't face another day
[Chorus:]
And love lies bleeding in my hand
Oh it kills me to think of you with another man
I was playing rock and roll and you were just a fan
When my guitar couldn't hold you
So I split the band
Love lies bleeding in my hands
I wonder if those changes
Have left a scar on you
All the burning hoops of fire
That you and I passed through
You're a bluebird on a telegraph line
I hope you're happy now
While if the wind of change coming down your way girl
You'll make it back somehow
[Chorus]
[Chorus]
Love lies bleeding in my hands