I Am at a loss for words....

[wish4cloe]

i have been given a second chance, maybe, i mean it was suddenly, it felt weird, i mean this crazy storm that i been in since she left suddenly stopped after growing worse with every passing minute and it was weird, i know that i wont mess it up, i love her and there is no way i would let go of that again, i learned that my life is miserable without her, and i dont want to push her away again ever...Hmmm...its weird i dont feel a battle in me anymore, no more rage or searching, i am nothing but tired now, wow, my body and soul are tired, finally maybe i can get some good sleep and dream about her and tomorrow, start to get a game plan together and thank the lord everyday for the rest of my life for this chance, i will show her everything inside of me that she has never seen before, i really dont know what to say...i am in awe im just exhausted now, so exhausted, i just need to pray and thank him for another chance and go to sleep and then call her tomorrow and talk like we used to and ask her to be with me again this weekend or atleast talk to her about it, i am beyond happy now to go to sleep with the small thoughts of maybe she's jsut doing it because things didnt work out with dereke and she still likes him and if he asked her out she would go out with him, but its not as much on my mind as i thought it would be, it doesnt matter, the door has been opened to me, i have no time to worry about him or that, all i have time to do is make her feel special and make her not only not regret getting back with me but feel so happy for doing it, i will treat her like the angel she is, so i take all those thoughts of dereke and go to sleep and wake up without them, there is nothing thats gonna come between us again no stupid shit, i want to make her happy, and now i have the biggest opportunity ive ever been given and i will not mess it up....

I LOVE YOU E, well im one step closer to cloe....