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hey i know i complain a lot about having to be here in leesburg. i'm sorry about that and i'm going to try and make this the last time but i have to get some of my feelings out. so here i go. i don't like it here it's to quite for me and there are to many little kids on my street, i know i use to say that about red wing but they were like 7-11 years old these guys are like 1-6 years old. no teens come out at all they all stay inside till night and of course my mom's doesn't know the place well enough to let me go out at night. i'm having a hard time getting to know people here i've made two "friends" i still don't know them that well but they're cool. nick and alex hardly talk to me at school and it not that much better at the house. they make me feel like outsiders around them. i mean its gotten to the point where at school if i see them coming i try to stare straight ahead and don't talk ot look at them. i feel if they don't or won't or don't want to talk to me then i won't talk to them. my moms getting on me about getting a job so i'm looking now but there is nothing around here that i want to do. nick got a job and is never around anymore, and i swear alex hates me or something. but what really pisses me off about them is when i still lived down in woodbridge my mom and dave made me take then everywhere i went and the ONE time i didn't (i was gone for 15 whole min. omfg) everyone got mad at me. nick and alex went off by themselves and my mom yelled at me and dave didn't understand why i had left them (o sorry i had my own life to live). that was THE ONLY FUCKING TIME. but here nick and alex don't do shit with me they always go off by themselves and i just want to yell at them "i had to leave all my friends to come to this fucking place. your the only people i know and you fucking leave me" i don't see how they can't see how much it makes me mad when the do that. my mom says she understands why i'm upset. but she doesn't, she doesn't see that when i lived in woodbridge i changed all my plans to make sure nick and alex had something to do. that i could have left them so many times. also i introduced then to my two best friends the first time they dame over and it took them to the first thursday we had school for them to ... o no wait it wasn't even them it was their father that introduced me to zach thats right. this fucking sucks. but anyways i want to come down and visit everyone in woodbridge but my mom says i have to have somewhere to spend the night but i can't always find somewhere to stay. i wish to god that i could come down there every weekend but ... i miss all of my friends down there. i wish i could just move back. i hope all of you are having fun doing whatever you are doing. i guess thats it.
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