Update
So I'm embarking on a quest. I don't know where to, what I'm looking for, how I'm getting there, or even what I hope to accomplish. What I do know is that what I'm doing now is not working. I'm not happy, I'm not even my usual self. Helping people is a burden, not a blessing; love is impossible, not everywhere; friends don't want me there, even if they invite me, I'm just a tool to be used. These thoughts keep crossing my mind, and even though I know better, the thoughts still plague me. So the time for change has come. I will return a better person, or not at all. I know what I have to do.