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There are so many roads that could take you where you want to go. Yet when you look at the map there are a lot of things along the way that you might want to stop and look at, or in my case a lot of things I want to remember before I get there so I know that I am getting close to my destination. I still, however, feel like I just keep getting lost and I no longer know what to ask or say that could honestly help me find my way again. I don't go to sleep feeling accomplished anymore...
Even right now I am on a huge dose of vicodan and robotussin, it's not even helping in the least. I felt tired on the way home, nearly dozed off at the wheel, felt tired after I watched my favorite show heroes... But naturally when I actually get to bed I just feel restless and no longer weary enough to lay down my head and skip on forward to the next day.
I definitely feel quite a bit misunderstood as of late. I just got over a excrutiating disease that left me feeling quite bored and alone at home... Hence the Vicodan... Went back to a full day of work today and I really feel that I am losing my mind, and a sense of my manhood. Out of all the people I talk to in a day noone ever asks how my days have been treating me, or ask what I want anymore. But I don't dare say that they don't care, I'm sure they do but don't feel a need to ask anymore.
Never a good thing when you wake up and just don't feel like living a full day anymore... I don't mean suicide or ending it, but more like not feeling like putting any energy into the day anymore because you just don't think anyone would care if you do. And maybe not just anyone but the people you want to care just won't get the message and all your positive feedback is coming from those that you just didn't particularly want to hear it from... Oh well huh. Im just a crazy irishman, and maybe thats all I am good for!
Even right now I am on a huge dose of vicodan and robotussin, it's not even helping in the least. I felt tired on the way home, nearly dozed off at the wheel, felt tired after I watched my favorite show heroes... But naturally when I actually get to bed I just feel restless and no longer weary enough to lay down my head and skip on forward to the next day.
I definitely feel quite a bit misunderstood as of late. I just got over a excrutiating disease that left me feeling quite bored and alone at home... Hence the Vicodan... Went back to a full day of work today and I really feel that I am losing my mind, and a sense of my manhood. Out of all the people I talk to in a day noone ever asks how my days have been treating me, or ask what I want anymore. But I don't dare say that they don't care, I'm sure they do but don't feel a need to ask anymore.
Never a good thing when you wake up and just don't feel like living a full day anymore... I don't mean suicide or ending it, but more like not feeling like putting any energy into the day anymore because you just don't think anyone would care if you do. And maybe not just anyone but the people you want to care just won't get the message and all your positive feedback is coming from those that you just didn't particularly want to hear it from... Oh well huh. Im just a crazy irishman, and maybe thats all I am good for!