Just needed an outlet for today
- Have to decide between two cameras for b-day due to limited selection in local stores and absolutely no employee that will help/know what the hell they're doing
- Choose higher rated one and pro photo preferred
- During week after purchase, decide it's not quite right
- 6yr old camera has the same options, is quicker to change ISO & Flash, and takes sharper distance shots
- Vaguely hint to family these issues
- Text brother about going to a different store to play around with cameras
- At store for half hour inspecting; available employee instead runs to help old couple who just now sneezed in cameras' direction
- Come home to be welcomed by brother yelling without preamble about how he's not going to help look for a new camera
- Calmly ask him to chill
- Yelling increases pitch, now with phrases of "You're never satisfied" and words like "ungrateful". "ignorant", "stupid"
- Walk into room to sob quietly
- Get it together enough to walk out and vacuum house
- Brother asks for both old and new cameras, but ignore him
- He finds them and takes multiple shots with both to compare
- Mother gets home as he's showing the shots on the computer
- Explain for both why it's only really just a step up in megapixel and takes a great close-up shot maybe 1-in-5 tries (distance is 0-in-5)
- Mother storms out, snipping "Take a pill!"
- Internally fume while still discussing with brother
- Later, hear them talking about the issue behind your back, including how it's a $45 restocking fee
- Mother asks if the pill was taken yet
- Walk into room to sob quietly but much harder
- Get yelled at for locking door, which doesn't matter because brother broke the lock over a decade ago so all anyone has to do is apply pressure
- Realize i'm 28 now and being mentally abused over own birthday present
- Die inside a little more
The joy of living.