Bitching
Quick recap of life: Quit work because ARGH. Still haven't applied anywhere yet because i'm unwell. Blood pressure problems persist, along with anxiety. Okay? Okay.
I really should stop looking up recaps of new Merlin eps. All they do is piss me off something fierce. And if it's not canon that's enraging me, it's fanon. See, ever since Lancelot walked into an ep and treated Merlin far better than Arthur was currently doing, fandom fic has taken to putting Merlin with any knight who comes along. Even if it's just fooling around to help Merlin deal with his feelings for Arthur. So there's Merlin/Lance, the canon Merlin/Freya (ugh), and now Merlin/Gawain. Which is weird because as far as i can tell, whenever Merlin has adventures with another (future)Knight of the Round, there is always tons of situations where Merlin will gush about Arthur or give him The Smile while the knight is around and the knight always gives this eyeroll like "so married."
What i really hate about fandom doing this, though, is the implication that Merlin would cheat on Arthur so easily. We already know Gwen drops Arthur in a second when Lancelot is in the picture. Even in this AU canon of the series it's been established Gwen didn't wait very long before jumping at Lance again. But Merlin spoke the words "If she feels as you do, she'll wait." So how can we then make Merlin do the same thing? Believe him to say forget about Arthur because he's sick of waiting and fall to someone else? It's horrible. No matter what, Merlin is Arthur's destiny. His constant who does EVERYTHING to keep Arthur safe and happy. I know Arthur can be an asshole but after like two years in his service you'd expect Merlin to shrug it off. It's utter evil to write Arthur being betrayed TWICE. The latest Gawain thing, at least from the recaps, i saw as great friendship that'll prove loyal once he is a knight. Even if Gawain said he was coming along for Merlin's sake only, Merlin is still in this all for Arthur.
What really gets me is you would think going to an Arthur/Merlin comm only would prevent me from seeing any of this bullshit, but no! No, they just stick whatever shit pairings they can think of in there like it's all fine. Why can i never find a fucking purist community?
I don't know if that whole thing made any sense. I haven't slept all night. No one will read it anyway. Meanwhile, i've suddenly discovered i want 3rd Rock slash between Tommy/Harry and it's completely the show's damn fault! I have pics to prove it! Inner child is weeping again.
I really should stop looking up recaps of new Merlin eps. All they do is piss me off something fierce. And if it's not canon that's enraging me, it's fanon. See, ever since Lancelot walked into an ep and treated Merlin far better than Arthur was currently doing, fandom fic has taken to putting Merlin with any knight who comes along. Even if it's just fooling around to help Merlin deal with his feelings for Arthur. So there's Merlin/Lance, the canon Merlin/Freya (ugh), and now Merlin/Gawain. Which is weird because as far as i can tell, whenever Merlin has adventures with another (future)Knight of the Round, there is always tons of situations where Merlin will gush about Arthur or give him The Smile while the knight is around and the knight always gives this eyeroll like "so married."
What i really hate about fandom doing this, though, is the implication that Merlin would cheat on Arthur so easily. We already know Gwen drops Arthur in a second when Lancelot is in the picture. Even in this AU canon of the series it's been established Gwen didn't wait very long before jumping at Lance again. But Merlin spoke the words "If she feels as you do, she'll wait." So how can we then make Merlin do the same thing? Believe him to say forget about Arthur because he's sick of waiting and fall to someone else? It's horrible. No matter what, Merlin is Arthur's destiny. His constant who does EVERYTHING to keep Arthur safe and happy. I know Arthur can be an asshole but after like two years in his service you'd expect Merlin to shrug it off. It's utter evil to write Arthur being betrayed TWICE. The latest Gawain thing, at least from the recaps, i saw as great friendship that'll prove loyal once he is a knight. Even if Gawain said he was coming along for Merlin's sake only, Merlin is still in this all for Arthur.
What really gets me is you would think going to an Arthur/Merlin comm only would prevent me from seeing any of this bullshit, but no! No, they just stick whatever shit pairings they can think of in there like it's all fine. Why can i never find a fucking purist community?
I don't know if that whole thing made any sense. I haven't slept all night. No one will read it anyway. Meanwhile, i've suddenly discovered i want 3rd Rock slash between Tommy/Harry and it's completely the show's damn fault! I have pics to prove it! Inner child is weeping again.