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i remember i use to have these dreams constantly, back when i didn't have anybody to make me feel the way you do. so my mind would create these nameless faceless people in my sleep, occasionally it was you, and i would be latched on to them all the time. i needed to be held, i needed to be helped, i needed to be saved. i needed that suffocating grip i had on these people to exist. because without it i felt shallow and lonely and detatched. and it was the weirdest thing ever. even now that i have you and this, i miss you all the time. when we are together i feel like i have to hug you and hold on to you so i can make sure that you are there, because i love you and i feel pathetic thinking that i need you but i do. because nothing feels fucking real