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if i didn't go home with him.
if i hugged him said goodbye and hopped in a taxi home alone
why do i feel like i made a mistake.
why do i feel like there isnt really much point to anything at all.
why does doing the right thing feel so wrong.
if there is a point to life what is the point of mine. if its to kill time then what if i'm not enjoying the time i'm killing. what if i'm just wasting it. if im wasting my life why should i even bother with it.
how can i keep on living a life like this where i have nobody. sure i know people. a few people even care. but its so lonely. so lonely. i dont know how to make myself a person worth caring about.
i wish he would call right now. i wish he would call and say "why did you go home alone? do you want me to come and get you?"
but he wont. because he just doesnt care that much.
and i do.
its for the best. but it fucking sucks. and there isnt much point at all. why bother to do whats for the best when there is nothing else good in your life.\
nothing.
if i hugged him said goodbye and hopped in a taxi home alone
why do i feel like i made a mistake.
why do i feel like there isnt really much point to anything at all.
why does doing the right thing feel so wrong.
if there is a point to life what is the point of mine. if its to kill time then what if i'm not enjoying the time i'm killing. what if i'm just wasting it. if im wasting my life why should i even bother with it.
how can i keep on living a life like this where i have nobody. sure i know people. a few people even care. but its so lonely. so lonely. i dont know how to make myself a person worth caring about.
i wish he would call right now. i wish he would call and say "why did you go home alone? do you want me to come and get you?"
but he wont. because he just doesnt care that much.
and i do.
its for the best. but it fucking sucks. and there isnt much point at all. why bother to do whats for the best when there is nothing else good in your life.\
nothing.