Mar 09, 2005 23:58
I told myself i was going to update everyday, but i'm trying to make a smooth transition back to writing.
nothing has happened since my last update, nothing to me at least.
my cousin and i have been playing phone tag since thursday, when my brother informed me she was lookin run down and "not herself". So i called her thursday when we were at the frat. she sounded worried/stressed and told me she would call me tomorrow. Friday came and went and she didn't call. Saturday morning she called and woke me up. I told her i would call her back. tried twice and left a message. ( if you know me, you know messages are not my thing. i don't leave them .. for personal reasons). Monday she called me back. We talked for a while, and i am more concerned than ever. I love my cousin we were like sisters growing up until some family issues continued to get in the way. We are older now and she goes to school with tony, and we talk more. I just feel like a horrible person not to have been there for her before. Things are going to be alright though.. she knows what she wants, and how to get there. it's just going to be tough, and i will be here for her. so hopefully things will clear up. she does not deserve this shit at all. hopefully i will see her friday, before she leaves for california (lucky).
Tony said we are getting my tattoo on friday, and after a disappointing day (tuesday) with no change in my hair, i will need it.
I mean seriously snow, you couldn't wait until i went back to school to happen? you had to snow hard the day i needed to get my hair done.. i'm so bored with my hair right now.damn you snow.
back to the tattoo.. i don't like to give away the surprise ending.
so my mom and i faught yesterday. I'm really suprised we made it a week without fighting. Usually my lack of paitence, quick wit, and sarcasum are a lethal combination that don't amuse her, and the fact that she can't remember most things i tell her, really pisses me off. thank whoever, but at least we aren't around each other when the russians invade. it's funny though, the one day my dad gets stuck at work, we fight. yet again, damn you snow.
i started a resume today, for a job during the summer and i realized..
i can't stick with anything. I've gone through so many jobs in not even 3 years. i've gone through so many hair styles, and colors. I've gone through so many types of clothing. I've gone through so many friends. I've gone through so many GUYS.
i know, i know you're saying "it's just a phase" or "you are trying to find yourself"... yadda yadda.
truth is.. i just get bored. B O R E D. that is why i quit everything.
i need a relationship.. one i won't get bored of. someone i won't get bored of.
this calls for some tough judging, and hard looking. out of all the things i listed - guys is the largest list (i believe). so i am starting there. i will find a guy that i can commit to - or i think i will remain hopeless.
Since St. Patty's day is around the corner.. i first off Vow that i will drink beer.. i'm irish.. and i'm going to fucking like it. Even though i'm a cocktail and straight up hard liquor kind of a gal. My mom, dad, and i watched the Quiet Man.. tonight.. it's tradition.. and even though i'm at school, that's one tradition that will never be broken. "Here's a nice stick to beat the lovely lady with." man do i fucking love that movie.
I am so proud of Chief. I recieved a drunk call on saturday ( first off.. AWESOME move) and she told me the amazing news. I am so proud of you darling, and i'm so happy your friends are so supportive. You know i love you! <3
8 days.. it's been 8 days.
i'm okay. i thought i came to a realization last night.. but i kept it inside.
i'm not posting until i know it's true. and i really hope it's not.
that would be terribly inconvenient.
again.. horrible post.