What does it all mean?

[wir3fly]

So here's the deal... my boyfriend of 4.5 years (j) broke my heart and discarded me like yesterdays trash about 6 weeks ago. I am doing okay. I am thinking i am developing a crush on my new friend, we shall call him m, and he is sweet. seriously. he walks me to my car when i leave school or his house. it was really nice to cuddle up and almost fall asleep on a couch and not get groped... (yeah ex had a tendency to think that cuddles = sex... not cool) but the problem is I cannot tell if he is just nice or if he has the same sort of feelings for me. I am beginning to question because m is hot and cold. like we will fall asleep one night, and then the next day he won't come near me. I'm told "guys are just like that" but i don's know. I sorta feel like he might be holding back because I am so close to being dumped. But i don't know. I think I just need to chill. i need to let things go and stop worrying about everything. I also need to cut a lot of my ties with j, but i can't give up on being his friend. he was too important and far too involved in my life to just walk away.

I know i just have to be strong and keep moving forward and keep busy. I wanna spend time with m, but i have to relax and keep breathing so that i don't come on too strong and i need to figure my feelings out so that I know where I stand. I know I am done with j but i don't know if i am ready for something new..