May 26, 2004 10:05
Say 20 things about 20 people on your lj friends list. Don't name them.
1. You told me once that you loved reading my journal because I wrote well. Well, I feel the same about you. I think you are a wonderful writer. The few nights that I've gotten a chance to hang out with you have been particularly wonderful time. I wish we spoke or saw each other more, especially since you're going off to college next year...but that's the way things are.
2. Oh you. I love you. When I first met you, I, like many others I know, was impressed, intimidated, and addicted. I couldn't wait to see you again, and for some time I wondered if I'd ever mean as much to you and you meant to me. Then one day it sort of clicked in my mind. You fell from your place of grace and god-status. It was the best thing I think that could've happened to our friendship. I'd always thought you were beautiful, talented, intelligent, unique and incredible. Then you became human, real, imperfect, and all the more wonderful for it. If I could I would spend the rest of my life with you. Just sitting on a couch with you makes me happy. You're my sister and I love you.
3. I don't know you as well as I wish I could. I think you're funny, blunt and amazing. You once made me cry without realizing it. We were sitting in a car with a few other people all having a moment, taking turns telling each other how much we loved and admired another person in the car. Then it came time for someone to say something about me and I suddenly realized that while I loved and held all the people in the car in very high esteem, none of them really knew anything about me. You told me you thought I was beautiful and calm and you wish you knew me better, and later I cried because I wanted to have with you and the other two people in the car the deep friendship that you seemed to have with each other.
4. I love you. Thinking about you makes me smile...although I wish you'd smoke less pot; sometimes I worry about you because I know you have the talent and ability to be whatever you choose, but I'm afraid you'll end up giving up your dreams because you're just fed up with working. You once gave me a gift and I wore it every day for months because it reminded me of our friendship. You have a slightly strange and definitely amusing obsession with my brother and it makes me laugh.
5. When I first met you I...well I didn't dislike you, but I didn't particularly like you either. Then I was given the chance to know you better and you astounded me. I connected with you on so many levels. I think you're incredibly talented (although I've only heard you sing in a car), a hopeless romantic who can be surprisingly down-to-earth, and fun to be around. You confuse me. I don't know what to think of you sometimes, you seem like so many different people at once. I'm afraid of hurting you.
6. I miss you!! I NEED to see you. I've had so much fun with you, good talks, great times. We click when we're around each other. You were my one and only New Years' Kiss, if you can even call it that.
7. I can't remember any definitive conversations I've had with you, although I know that we've spoken. You're really incredibly smart and sharp, but your sleeping schedule is completely fucked up. That's okay, its part of what makes you you. You remind me of my little brother...or I guess as my brother grows up he reminds me more and more of you. It's a little scary/weird and kinda cool. It gives me faith that he'll end up being a smart, good person.
8. Hm. Whenever I see you (which is very seldom) I have a really good time just hanging out and talking. The first day I met you I had one of those day-long crushes. After that I reassessed the situation and realized that I really just wanted to know you better. I'm still attracted to you, sort of, (probably because you have a bit of the asshole in you) but not enough to ever make anything of it, partly because making something of it would be a great betrayal. Despite all that, I think you're awesome and I need to call you and we need to hang out.
9. So much I could say about you. You are the oldest friend I have. When I think of my childhood I think of you. Our friendship is so different now. Better and worse in a nostalgic way. I miss the carefreeness. I miss not having to think or talk about anything more deep than our plans for the shack on the hill. But now...now I have the honor of knowing you. I admire you more than anyone I think I know. You are so driven, so intelligent and cute and funny, real and inspired and amazing. I still think of you, in a way, as the girl I was best friends with in fifth grade. It's weird to realize just how many people have had or do have crushes on you, and seeing you get hickies is strange...but I love you. I'm going to really miss you when you go away next year.
10. I love you, but at the moment I'm not too happy with you, or crazy to spend a lot of effort trying to see you. You've been my savior, and the cause of quite a few breakdowns. I used to hold you in this place of incredible esteem and wonder. I still love and respect you and think you are an intelligent and caring person, but I haven't been impressed with some of your actions as of late. You treated someone I care about like complete shit. You seem to care more about drinking and your girlfriend than the people who care about you the most. You have a bit of a superiority complex, you get angry easily. I'm worried you're getting too comfortable with where you are. (You also owe me money.) All these bother me so much because I also care about you a lot. I think you are amazing, you love fiercely, and you could do anything with your life that you want. I need to speak to you.
11. I haven't seen you in a long time, which is upsetting because, if for no other reason, seeing you just makes me smile. Unlike most of the people I know, you're easy to be around. It's a relief. I worry about you sometimes, about the way you view yourself. You are so much older than your actual age, it's crazy.
12. Ahh. My soulmate. As far as common loves and dreams, we are the same person. It's exciting for me to read your journal and think, yes! yes! exactly!! that's perfect!. I'm always astounded by how beautiful a person you are. You love life so much, it inspires the people who know you. It's a tragedy that I've never gotten to REALLY speak to you. We need to hang out at least once before you leave the country. Or maybe I'll just have to join you one day.
13. Oh, you're cute. But you don't know it. You're terribly insecure and I hope to rid you of that awful habit. I would never guess that you're the age you are. You seem much too old (in a good way). My parents were very impressed by you when they met you, and I can understand why. We need to go to some good museums (i.e.: the getty) and see some good musicals. In fact, we just need to see each other, period. Yeah. Stop living so far away. Oh, and I love you.
14. What can I say. I love you. The only thing that really bothers me about you is that you hurt yourself, whether physically or emotionally. It bothers me because I care about you so much. Every time we see each other I think our friendship grows more and more. If someone asked me to name my closest friends, yours would be one of the first to come out of my mouth. You constantly make me laugh. You're a gifted artist, even if you don't think you are. It hurts me to see the way some people treat you, because you don't deserve it at all. You're gorgeous, even if you may not think so. I love seeing your smile, and I'm incredibly envious of your hair. I'm soooo excited that I'm going to see you all the time next year. You're gonna get sick of me, just wait and see.
15. I don't know you very well, although I wish I did. When I met you I didn't know what to think. Then, after a few hours, I realized that you were incredibly cool, talented, intelligent, fun, and magnetic. I wish I could call you one of my good friends...maybe one day that can be arranged.
16. If I had one word to describe you it would be beautiful. You are beautiful in every possible way, and I love and miss you. I feel like you left before I really got a chance to establish a deep/lasting connection with you, but I know the minute I see you again I'll love being around you just as much as I always do.
17. You're talented, funny, intelligent, and attractive to the point where it's just silly. I feel like the first night I met you I really bonded with you, but after that our friendship kind of dwindled. Probably has something to do with the fact that your life is constantly filled and exciting. I wish I could see you. Being around you makes me happy, although I'm afraid you don't really feel the same way about me. And you owe me a back massage.
18. When I first met you I was struck by how fun and energetic you were. Then you disappointed me and continued to do so by being unfairly mean to people I care about. Now I don't know what to think of you. I wish I could see you and speak to you. I still think of you as one of my friends, but I don't know if I know the real you. You've always been good to me, and I don't take it against you for not liking some of the people I love...but...oh I don't know.
19. Oy. I could rant about you for awhile, but I'm running out of steam so I won't. I've had some great times with you. I wish I saw you more often, only you have a tendency to be depressed and pull people down with you. You're quick to get angry or offended, you have a whole list of problems. But I also love you, I miss our friendship and I think you really truly care about the people in your life and are just sick of being discarded. I wish sometimes I could change you, just a little bit.
20. I recently had the wonderful opportunity to spend more time with you than I ever have before. I discovered that I love being your friend, I love talking to you, love hanging out with you. You're so talented and so smart and so funny and sharp. Knowing that you're my friend makes me happier. The only thing that makes me unhappy is that I rarely get to see you, and don't really speak to you in between the times we see each other. But you are AWESOME and we NEED to get out together before I leave for the summer.
there. done. geez that took a fucking longass time.