Change continues
So I was in a place I had never thought I’d be in my life. Abercrombie and Fitch. Why? Because, I use to hate everything associated with it. The culture, the people, the clothes, the uber rich and skinny people. I detested it. It was always an ‘us’ and ‘they’ thing. But now as I stood there I enjoyed everything in there. The people were nice, the perfume smelled wonderful and the clothing were things I already wear.
But no! I hate this place there was no way I was going to like it. But why? I realized I had no real reason except some silly childish high schoolish thing of ‘us’ and ‘them’. I had no justification and I had held onto that thinking or years.
It was yet another restraint I had put on myself as I was growing up. What I thought was right and what I thought was the cool thing to do, to fit in. So I did what I always have a problem doing.
I let go.
I gave up a silly childish part of me and I felt good about it. Now it wasn’t the largest problem I have, but it was a step in maturing I had never done. And I think it was a big step, because I always put in my head certain crowds. People who are too cool or beautiful for me to even associate with. But…I think I can step past that now, hopefully.
Yay for 1 thing going right this summer :P
P.s. I have a job finally, in **what** the food industry as a Host. Oh well…here’s to joining the actor clique.
But no! I hate this place there was no way I was going to like it. But why? I realized I had no real reason except some silly childish high schoolish thing of ‘us’ and ‘them’. I had no justification and I had held onto that thinking or years.
It was yet another restraint I had put on myself as I was growing up. What I thought was right and what I thought was the cool thing to do, to fit in. So I did what I always have a problem doing.
I let go.
I gave up a silly childish part of me and I felt good about it. Now it wasn’t the largest problem I have, but it was a step in maturing I had never done. And I think it was a big step, because I always put in my head certain crowds. People who are too cool or beautiful for me to even associate with. But…I think I can step past that now, hopefully.
Yay for 1 thing going right this summer :P
P.s. I have a job finally, in **what** the food industry as a Host. Oh well…here’s to joining the actor clique.