May 08, 2005 12:44
one very key aspect of life and love :
"love isn’t about the wonderful feelings you get from it; its about the hell you’re willing to live through to continue to experience those feelings. That is why there are people who appear to think that love is about pain."
Something i know all too well. all you have is your family and yourself. And its going to take losing everything in my posession in order for me to straiten myself out. Whoever you knew previously... erase her. SHe wasn't worth shit... a traitor to a good woman, a naieve girl, and a hypocritical, trecherous, if not dishonest... boy- in the skin of a man. She was blind.
Now is the time to start over... to make a new, stronger, more empowered individual..a much older individual... who knows her purpose. Tony said once that if she, the mere shell of my former self...were to die; he would go through hell to bring her back... but this wolf in sheep's clothing can only work for his own benefit. I see things so much more clearly.
I was willing to live through anything.
But this kind of hell... is reserved only for those truly dead...
And there is more than one way to die.